Beautiful words Terry. Sums up how I feel too.
Sometimes I think I pine for my former friends. I miss them, the cameraderie, being part of their lives, having shared goals and beliefs etc. But in reality they weren't my friends, and I wasn't theirs. If I'm honest with myself, if it was one of them that'd left, I would have treated them in the same conditional manner they've treated me, because thats how we're all taught to behave.
So I can't blame them even though its easy to allow myself to feel the hurt they cause. But now I am free, I can pity them.