Good Old Bill Harris, C.O for the Portsmouth UK area about 4 years ago finished it for me. He was giving his opening talk on a Tuesday evening telling the whole congregation how wrong it was for brothers to think independently of the faithful and discreet slave. He said that an independent attitude was evidence of pride and Jehovah hates pride. (I still have my notes from that talk) Then later in the talk he recounted the story of CT Russell who independently made a study of the scriptures in Allegheny.
I immediately thought, if its ok for Russell to research independently, why isn't it ok for us? The whole thing sruck me as nonsense and I began my research in earnest after that.
Thanks Bill, your nonsense in that talk really opened my eyes.