fullofdoubtnow
I don't see much evidence of a loving god in the world today, If god exists, he isn't worth believing in anyway, in my view.
It's not as if I don't understand what you mean. before to me it was the lack of love that the bible sounded to show that I couldn't stand. that's when I became atheist (I needed to get all belief systeme out of the way) - but right after there were things that couldn't match with the big-bang unless anything have been programmed somehow that when I got interested in numerologie (no real answer there too) I stood agnostic and then got back to the bible but not believe in it to prove it was wrong to my familly ... So I had to read it for real ...
Those were my feeling before I read the bible by myself ... (and not word for word - because it only leads to missunderstanding - and there is a reason for that i think - I might get into the subject one day - but conceptually it is coherent "to me" - and instead of leading to understand that God is insane - it get to the point I realised that it's all about the fact that we have free will - and without free will we are slaves also without spirituality we are slaves of everything vain) ... bla bla bla ... I mean it's a 2000 pages book ... I began with the Gospel ... and oh surprise all the things that I've been taught sound not what this book is really saying.