big question though.. If God/Jesus/Holy spirit isnt a trinity, then why do most mainstream bibles have John 1:1 say they are?
In the spirit of full disclosure, I no longer believe that the Bible is the literal inspired word of God. My opinion reflects that belief. There are clearly passages in the Bible that show Jesus as an inferior being to God the Father. There are other passages such as John 1:1 that seem to indicate the Father and the son are one in the same. This has to do with the fact that various different people wrote the various books of the Bible, including the gospels. They were not led by holy spirit to transcribe God's own words. They interjected their own opinions and beliefs. That's why there are so many religions. You can argue both sides of most doctrinal issues using the Bible. There is seldom a clear, definite answer. If there was, there'd be far fewer denominations around.
Also, even Christians admit that the gospels were written down decades after Jesus' death. The earliest of these gospels tend to show Jesus in a more human light. The Gospel of John, which is believed to be the last one written, shows a more divine side to Jesus. Hence, the John 1:1 scripture you were talking about. It was a custom at the time to deify a great leader after his death as word of mouth increasingly exaggerated his feats and accomplishments. Just some food for thought.
Good luck to you on your journey. I wish you the best regardless of which path you choose.