Hey jibberish and welcome to JWD.
I've been out for 24 years, walked away when I turned 18, never da'd, never df'd (I guess they could have df'd me, but none of my family has said anything), I just never went back to any meetings and refused to meet with the elders.
I never had the feelings that you are going thru, I always had friends that were not JW's and the one's that were JW I never missed at all. I think those of us who built a life outside the JW org have faired much better than those whose whole life was the BORG.
Just give it time, be sincere when making new friends. Friendship is built on trust so be honest with your new friends it will help them understand your "quirky ways" and maybe they will be able to be a better friend to you. Also remember true friendship takes time to build, it doesn't happen overnight, so be patient give it time.
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