Jgnat, most of it makes sense. a few things are different...Hubby will never leave again. He told me that when I asked him to leave before. He told me that he needs me too much and with out me he is better off dead. So if I did decided to kick him out I would have to have him removed by the cops, that is the only way i would be able to get him out. I would much rather stay in my house and keep my things but if it did come down to it I would leave with nothing but the kids.
My parents wouldn't have a problem with going back to school, because I did before...I never finished, but i have a student loan now that i can't afford to pay back
Hubby did leave for another woman but nothing happened with her...once he left me she wasn't interested in him, I can't see him stepping out on me because of all his problems right now the only stuff he does is the chatting online, because he can pretend to be someone else.
One thing about me is that I try to make everyone else happy, not thinking about myself. I can't do that anymore....I can't handle it anymore.
As for my MIL she knows if she goes too far I won't let her have much association with the kids. that would be really hard on her because she is one of those people who have to control EVERYTHING!!
I did have an elder tell me that they would support me in whatever I decide to do (leave hubby or not) as long as what I decide is for the benefit of myself and children spiritually. Thats all fine and good but i haven't had anyone ask how I was doing what's going on if I need any food or anything. So they are really showing their concern.
I was in a cong. once that asked for food donations for someone in the cong. who didn't have any food. At the time I had very little, I was a single mom with a baby(just after hubby left the first time) I started to think that some of the food might be coming to me...(there was a lot of food).... Yet nothing came to me and even though I told the elders I had nothing, no one helped!
I'm starting to realize that the only help I can get is to help myself. I used to depending on everyone else, I can't do that anymore. thanks for all your advice.
