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  Thanks For your Input All

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  thanks everyone!

  you were very supportive and helpful on this subject.. <with the exception of the idiot at the end lol>.

  edited by - eyes_opened on 23 january 2001 19:40:40

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  Thanks! Good to meet you too.
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  Thanks For your Input All

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  thanks everyone!

  you were very supportive and helpful on this subject.. <with the exception of the idiot at the end lol>.

  edited by - eyes_opened on 23 january 2001 19:40:40

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  Sure Sass It had a Subject at one time...then I felt bad about having sent the letter so I took it off, as well as the subject line, but now I've brought it back as there were a few who wanted to take a peek. I am one dizzy wench. What was I doing again? <looking around>
  I don't know if you can tell, but I'm new to this message group business.....
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  Thanks For your Input All

  by eyes_opened in

  1. jw
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  thanks everyone!

  you were very supportive and helpful on this subject.. <with the exception of the idiot at the end lol>.

  edited by - eyes_opened on 23 january 2001 19:40:40

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  Hi just me! :)

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  Confusion Abounds!

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  does anyone else out there feel like a color blind person trying to solve a rubiks cube?

  lol....that's they way i've felt for a while now!.

  just had a long discussion with my mom about some of my questions.

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  Your story has given me a lot of comfort happy! It's great to know there is a life after being JWized And yes I remember the KM before the assembly hehehe, and the lessons on how our hair should be brushed and hands washed...too funny. Boy, it's a good thing they brought that up or I woulda been a reeeeeal mess hehehehe
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  Confusion Abounds!

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  does anyone else out there feel like a color blind person trying to solve a rubiks cube?

  lol....that's they way i've felt for a while now!.

  just had a long discussion with my mom about some of my questions.

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  Yes, the more I think about it the more I realize I cannot stand the constant tug of war with my emotions. I either have to accept that they are the "Truth", or that they aren't. And I have just seen too much over the years to live the lie that is the truth. Thanks for your input everyone.
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  Confusion Abounds!

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  1. jw
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  does anyone else out there feel like a color blind person trying to solve a rubiks cube?

  lol....that's they way i've felt for a while now!.

  just had a long discussion with my mom about some of my questions.

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  Does anyone else out there feel like a color blind person trying to solve a Rubiks cube? LOL....That's they way I've felt for a while now!

  Just had a long discussion with my mom about some of my questions. My mom too, went through what I am going through now. This happened to her about 20 years ago. After trying other religions she however made her way back to Jehovahs Witnesses, and she said that even though she knows that they aren't perfect...for her they are the closest thing out there to being Gods true orginization. She said that no other religion can make you feel the way JH's can, when you walk in to an assembly hall and see how organized and clean everything is, and how everyone is showing such love for each other. And I know the feeling she is talking about. But there are also so many other unpleasant feelings I associate with my 30 years in this religion...fear at expressing questions or differing view points, guilt for even thinking differently, not being good enough to please someones idea of the perfect publisher, etc.

  So even though I feel somewhat better after speaking with my mother <for the time being anyway> I'm still so confused. This forum is very helpful though, as it is one way I can tell others the way I feel with out fear of reprisal. Thanks for listening everyone.

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  Thanks For your Input All

  by eyes_opened in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  thanks everyone!

  you were very supportive and helpful on this subject.. <with the exception of the idiot at the end lol>.

  edited by - eyes_opened on 23 january 2001 19:40:40

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  Hey guys :) I had just posted a copy of the letter I had sent to the sister who told me it ok to send her any questions I had. I'm afraid however my letter was a bit sarcastic around the edges <not what I really intended...but I come from a family of wise guys and this is just a way of speaking for us>
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  Thanks For your Input All

  by eyes_opened in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  thanks everyone!

  you were very supportive and helpful on this subject.. <with the exception of the idiot at the end lol>.

  edited by - eyes_opened on 23 january 2001 19:40:40

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  And thanks for the sweet comments thinkers wife they really mean a lot to me right now. I'll definitely be hanging around!
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  Thanks For your Input All

  by eyes_opened in

  1. jw
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  thanks everyone!

  you were very supportive and helpful on this subject.. <with the exception of the idiot at the end lol>.

  edited by - eyes_opened on 23 january 2001 19:40:40

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  No, no one peed in my cheerios LOL....Unfortunately, though....any question within the orginization is generally regarded as "a complaint" And no I don't believe JEHOVAH WOULD do these things at all!!!! I am arguing with others interpretations. I believe that is what other would have me believe, and I'm saying....no...I'm not going to believe anymore that he would do things like this. And we do have a different concept of time and space than spirit creatures, The scriptures even tell that Jehovah views one thousand years as a day. I mean..to a human, when they hear about things that happened in 1500 it's ancient history, but in reality it only happened 500 years ago, only half a day for God! And I'm just saying that the God that others would have me believe in, would let his children continue to endure death and pain for thousands and thousands of years...It just doesn't make sense to me, and never has...not after 30 years of bible study.

  And I truly feel bad that I was so forceful in my letter that I wrote...Just 30 years of pent up emotion coming out in one fell swoop I'm afraid.<as open discussion *without WTBTS info in hand* in not the forte of Jehovah's Witnesses> I have never been allowed free thought, and it is only now that I finally have had to the courage to attempt my first pitiful efforts at it. unfortunately I guess I botched it up a bit. <sigh> Please, please don't everyone think I'm awful? I'm not really....I've been crying for 3 days straight worrying that I totally freaked everybody out at the KH.

  Edited by - eyes_opened on 22 January 2001 11:1:4
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  Thanks For your Input All

  by eyes_opened in

  1. jw
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  thanks everyone!

  you were very supportive and helpful on this subject.. <with the exception of the idiot at the end lol>.

  edited by - eyes_opened on 23 january 2001 19:40:40

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  You are right of course....I'm just over tired here! Haven't slept much the past few days. <YAWN!> But 'tis better to be tired and aware, then well rested and deluded..LOL