i haven't left.... 1 thing while i'm actually in is being here though.... i'm happy here.
i actually feel for the first time really "right" about something... .
hmmm ...
I threw away my 'no blood card' and celebrated my birthday and my friends birthdays! I started making friends with 'worldly people', which was my favorite part. For the first time in my life I could choose my friends and my friends could choose me ... no one felt obligated or had to pretend because you were part of the same organization. My friendships now are much more sincere and true than I have ever experienced before!
jelcat
i was 16 and not a clue in the world what i was getting into..... how about you?
how old were you?.
I had just turned 18 and was in 'the ministry' with an elder. At one point it was just the two of us in the car and he flat out asked me why I wasn't baptized yet. I didn't really have an answer for him, so he said that I was doing everything required of me (ie. ministry, theocratic school, commenting) and that I should just do it. So I did it. My parents were so hurt that I had 'made the decision without talking to them'. Truth is, I didn't really DECIDE anything! Ugh!
jelcat
and petrified... i just recently became a pioneer and always had nagging questions in the back of my mind.
so, i decided that when i have get a study i would research all the questions as i go along so as to prove everything in the truth... i got 4 studies in about 2 months.
all was fine, until i reached i think chapter 6 in the bible teach book about the resurrection.
welcome cognac!
I understand the feeling that your whole world is crashing in. I remember feeling that. When everything started to fall apart and I began to see the flaws in everything, I then began to fall apart. I even went through a period when I thought that if I could just ignore all of my questions for a little while and focus on 'doing jehovah's will', that I would then be able to come back to those issues and see that I was certainly making too much of things. Thankfully though, I did not step back. Who knows where I would have been if I had simply put my blinders back on because it was easier? Having questions is nothing to worry about, it makes you human, but when there are NO answers to your questions time and time again, that is when one must begin to worry. I myself have not left entirely as of yet. I am inactive and slowly trying to open the eyes of my family.
It is not an easy journey but the end result is so worth it. Stick around here and you will learn things that you would have never imagined. I know I have. When I came here, I had already made my decision, but the people and experiences on this board continue to help and strengthen me. I wish you all the best and truly hope you find what you need.
jelcat
note: only use dry erase markers.
my son and i decided to try writing on the mirror in our bathroom with dry erase markers and we had so much fun.
we traced our faces/cups/sink fitures and ect.
I have nephews around that age and I love it ... they are so much fun
jelcat
note: only use dry erase markers.
my son and i decided to try writing on the mirror in our bathroom with dry erase markers and we had so much fun.
we traced our faces/cups/sink fitures and ect.
AWWWW ... how cute!!! That sounds like so much fun!! How old is he?
jelcat
i am very new to the site and i'm sure there is a learning curve, so please bear with me.
i have looked around a little and find the site very interesting and encouraging so far.
it is heartwarming to meet other people with questions or experiences who can relate them without needing to hide behind blatant negativity or automatic judgemental attitudes.
welcome yomomma!
I too am doing what I need to do in order to mantain family connections and getting very tired of it myself ....
I wish you all the best and hope to see more of you around.
jelcat
well it looks like this site is a real melting pot, a broad spectrum of views and beliefs.
for sure there are many disaffected ex jws.
so in as few words as possible, preferably not more than one sentence, how would you describe yourself spiritually?
I think you all know the faith I have chosen for myself by now
jelcat
Great job V! I enjoyed watching and look forward to more!
jelcat
I always thought so too JH! This is strange ...
jelcat
i'd like you all to tell me 2 or 3 things:.
1- were you raised a witness or not?.
2-if you were, was your family very "theocratic" or not so much?.
1. Mom started studying when I was 8
2. Mom had her phases, dad never baptized/non witness but backed up my mom
3. muslim
jelcat
