Posts by GoddessRachel

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I am So Angry

by GoddessRachel in

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i hate everything.

i am so angry at my mother, at my father, my sister, my brother.

nobody understands me.

GoddessRachel

I Hate Everything. I am so angry at my mother, at my father, my sister, my brother. Nobody understands me. My own boyfriend can't stand me. Why would he? I can't even stand me.

I don't know why we suffer through this joke called human existance. It must be some kind of elaborate joke that somebody or something is playing on us. If I could be selfish enough I'd do myself in. But it would be unfair to hurt my grandma like that. So I just continue on in this poor excuse of a life and hope that the end comes soon.

What kind of pathetic loser makes a post like this anyway? A desperate lonely pathetic loser. That would be me.

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A JWD poll - Using the Forum

by Lady Lee in

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i'm interested in why you came and why you stay.

searching the net for info about jwscame from another websitefriend told me about otheron an emotional level where were you when you first came here?.

frustrated or fed up with jws and wts needed some info and support from other people who may feel the same waywas dfed or daed and felt lost and alonewas involved with a jw and needed info about this religion that was interfering with the relationshipotherhow long did you read before you started posting?.

GoddessRachel

Why did you first come here?

3 & 4 ("other" being that I came here looking for people like me when I felt so terribly alone, and I knew about this place because a friend had included it in a letter)

On an emotional level where were you when you first came here?

2. needed some info and support from other people who may feel the same way

How long did you read before you started posting?

1. almost immediately

If you go back in your history what was your first post?

2. an interesting topic that pushed you to click on that reply link (about missing my first Memorial)

Have you gone through the archives (older posts) to. . . .

1. do some research on the JWs or a particular topic related to the WTS (what kind of judicial committee and disfellowshipping experiences others have had)

If you have been here for a while why do you stay

4. need support during the rough times
5. helping others

Feel free to offer any other info

I like this place and feel like it's a form of therapy when I really need it. I hope that I'm helpful to others in the meantime. I try to be. I feel less alone and lonely for my JW family because of this place.

Peace,

Rachel

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You're sitting

by John Doe in

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around the table with your 5 siblings and two parents, about to eat a chicken dinner.

everyone has worked hard that day, and you can see the jealous sneer and determined posture of your brothers as you leer at each other and wait impatiently as your father says the prayer.

"amen" comes, and you all reach for a chicken leg, while your mom swats your hands away and bids you to mind your manners.. everyone gets a piece, and all of you could easily eat a second or third, but there's only one remaining piece of chicken sitting in the plate.

GoddessRachel

Oh, man! I'm a middle child too. I think the middle children get screwed. The oldest got stuff the others didn't get, and the baby got stuff the others didn't get. So unfair! What a conniving little brat. Did your lil' brother get his payback later? I'm guessing he did...

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parenting a transgendered teen

by chickpea in

deep breath here....... my baby... nearly 15!...

has disclosed in the last several months .

that, altho born to us a girl, he needs to be a boy... we have had.

GoddessRachel

When I use Firefox I can't format my posts for some reason. Chickpea, I also want to say that you are an amazing parent. AMAZING. And yes, it is sad that you are an obvious exception in this area; I'd like to think that is changing as well, starting with parents and families like you and yours. Peace be with all of you. I have a lot to learn from your family. ~Rachel

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parenting a transgendered teen

by chickpea in

deep breath here....... my baby... nearly 15!...

has disclosed in the last several months .

that, altho born to us a girl, he needs to be a boy... we have had.

GoddessRachel

Chickpea, thank you for teaching me this: for edification and PC-ness, when in doubt, the question to ask: how do you identify? most people in a sexual minority will appreciate a desire to be clear.....

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You're sitting

by John Doe in

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around the table with your 5 siblings and two parents, about to eat a chicken dinner.

everyone has worked hard that day, and you can see the jealous sneer and determined posture of your brothers as you leer at each other and wait impatiently as your father says the prayer.

"amen" comes, and you all reach for a chicken leg, while your mom swats your hands away and bids you to mind your manners.. everyone gets a piece, and all of you could easily eat a second or third, but there's only one remaining piece of chicken sitting in the plate.

GoddessRachel

I agree with Cog: Dad gets the last piece of chicken AND manages to swat a kid or two as well. Are we right?

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~ the latest MLM: coming to a KH near you ~

by chickpea in

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early this morning, i headed out to .

a "u-pick-em" strawberry farm .

and lo and behold.... a "sister" .

GoddessRachel

OMG, Chickpea, I never made the connection! Doh! What an idiot - I was just thinking about this too, all the Pampered Chef and candle and tupperware and Avon and whatever else parties I went to as a Witness and how it was so strange that so many Witnesses at so many different congregations had these parties. I thought it was just a local thing. Someone nailed it on the head when they said many Witnesses are not well educated and thus easy targets for scammers. Thanks for the enlightenment. Just another sad thing about the poor sucker JW's - and how I'm so glad I am not part of it anymore.

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changing

by lancelink in

i have realized lately that i have come to terms in a way regarding the beliefs of the jw's.

for over thirty years, i did my best to be a productive, supporting member of the congregation.

within the last three years there have been a number of deaths in my family.

GoddessRachel

"I didn't write a letter to quit, they didn't own me." I like your attitude about this! "I didn't know what "grace" was. The word was taken out of the NWT and replaced with the negative words of "undeserved kindness"." I didn't know this!

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USA National Anthem sung by Whitney Houston

by MsMcDucket in

happy 4th of july everyone!.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q5gsxsmyvme.

GoddessRachel

Happy Independence Day, Ms. McD!

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Are you now involved in a different religion or structured group?

by feenx in

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i was browsing another post where wtwizard implied membership in another group, and was asked what it was.

that got me thinking...since coming out the society, has anyone embraced another organized religion or group, public or secret?

if so, what is it, and what made you join and continue membership?

GoddessRachel

I have visited a Unitarian church service(really liked it) one time. I thought I would go back, but the following Sunday I started to feel something like what a panic attack might be. I tried again the next Sunday, and it was the same thing. So I decided that organized religion (even one as liberal as the Unitarians) is just not for me - not at this time anyway. PEACE, Rachel