Posts by GoddessRachel

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Have you noticed that disfellowshipped Witnesses are treated differantly?

by isnrblog in

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my family does not speak to me.

i have no problem with that as they are pains in the ass.

but during my tenure as a jw, i noticed that differant families would treat their df'd members differantly, even if they didn't live in the same household, often inviting them over for dinner, etc.

GoddessRachel

when i was df-ed...i had no association with anyone...no friends , family, elders...as per my and their understanding of org procedure based on bible principles.
the result..she was reinstated within 5 months (altho she was not a strong believer) and to my knowledge continues to this day.
i was refused reinstatement for a year and a half as a result of which i lost all my faith in a loving god, lost all my friends, strained relationships with my family continue to this day, no desire to fix my marraige, lost all my work, had a complete nervous breakdown, bankruptcy imminent, and no longer an attendee...
gotta love the irony

TIJKMO, I know it didn't feel like it at the time (I know because I went through COMPLETE isolation too, and I'm still messed up socially to this day) but they actually did you a favor! You were able to wake up from the lie! If you had been reinstated as quickly as the girl was maybe you'd still be a Witness today! *Gasp!* Rachel

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Have you noticed that disfellowshipped Witnesses are treated differantly?

by isnrblog in

jw
friends

my family does not speak to me.

i have no problem with that as they are pains in the ass.

but during my tenure as a jw, i noticed that differant families would treat their df'd members differantly, even if they didn't live in the same household, often inviting them over for dinner, etc.

GoddessRachel

Yes, because disfellowshipping is an unfair rule dealt out on familes who have broken hearts and consciences, and who try to do what "Jehovah wants" which is supposedly cutting off and shunning their own family, but this hurts a lot so families will deal with it however they are able to. It's completely inconsistent because it's completely unnatural.

I used to be bitter when I saw families associating with their disfellowshipped family member. That was when I was a Witness. Now I'm so glad for anybody and everybody who can see beyond the crap and treat their family the way they are naturally inclined to. Of course, I am biased, because I'm on the receiving end of family shunning due to leaving the religion.

Rachel

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OK you scuz buckets... I'm mad now!

by dawg in

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friends

folks, surly one of you can tell me what the scriptual reasons the jws have that only the so called "annointed" should partake of the evening meal as the laughable jws call it?

have i pissed someone off?

did i not bathe this week?

GoddessRachel

I'm not a scuz bucket. Just remember when you point a finger at me, there are three pointing right back at you, SCUZ BUCKET!

Also, whoever said the JW's are full of crap had it right. Don't try to figure out the logic. Hey, maybe instead of trying to prove points to your cousin, ask HIM to explain to you about your question. Maybe he can do it better than we can, because he knows the truth or what-not.

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You have a favorite coffee/tea/beer cup or mug?

by TJ - iAmCleared2Land in

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friends

you have one you use all the time?

despite a cupboard full of cups, there's one or two you always reach for?

i have two in my house that i use most often.

GoddessRachel

Loon, I LOVE Pinky and the Brain!

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You have a favorite coffee/tea/beer cup or mug?

by TJ - iAmCleared2Land in

jw
friends

you have one you use all the time?

despite a cupboard full of cups, there's one or two you always reach for?

i have two in my house that i use most often.

GoddessRachel

My new favorite coffee mug is one that a friend gave me for Christmas last month: it has a picture of a burning NWT on it.

I'll take a picture if you want...but that does seem like a lot of work. (Talk about lazy!)

My long-time favorite mug is one that former coworkers gave to me as a parting gift when I moved on to another job years ago. It has a rainbow-ish design on it and it's basic shape, white ceramic.I have no idea why I love it so; I just always find myself grabbing for that one!

Rachel

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Were YOU Personally Disappointed That The End Didn't Come Yet?

by minimus in

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friends

GoddessRachel

As a JW, YES, I was secretly disappointed that it wasn't here yet. I couldn't say that though, because that would be like conceding that I am lacking faith.

Now, I just wish my family would wake up. Maybe in 2014 they will realize they've been had...

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Never Thought About Suicide. Why not?

by Nosferatu in

i was doing some thinking this morning about my mother, when she said she wanted to "work on our bond" over a pizza, and i pretty much didn't bother with the offer.

i was thinking about how i'd confronted her before my boy was born about all the physical abuse which she denied.

i started thinking back to that time in my life, when i would shake uncontrollably thinking about school, let alone actually going to school.

GoddessRachel

I agree wholeheartedly with what Crumpet said.

I thought about suicide from at least middle school on. I remember actually thinking about it younger than that but don't know that I fully comprehended what it meant. I once told my childhood best friend at the time that I thought about it, and her conditioned response was "Jehovah won't resurrect you if you do that, so go ahead, but no one will ever see you again."

Sweet. I believe we were about six at the time.

I didn't try it because I didn't want to hurt my family. I didn't want to not get into the paradise. Funny how later the JW doctrine helped me come to the conclusion that I would just die forever, go to sleep, never feel pain again. It was so tempting...

Nosferatu, I'm amazed at your spirit, that you never considered it, despite your horrifying childhood. It makes me wonder what is wrong with me, because I didn't have a childhood like yours, and yet I wanted to escape so badly that I considered it all the time... I guess you are just stronger.

Peace,

Rachel

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Stardust-the movie

by gaiagirl in

just saw this last weekend.

anyone else a fan?

i found it to be very much like "princess bride", but better!

GoddessRachel

I saw it. Yes, I think The Princess Bride is a good comparison. I thought it was really a cute movie. Though I'm very fond of The Princess Bride, so I can't say it was better. I will say they were both equally good in their own way.

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Reinstated 5 yrs ago

by Treebe in

i am just trying to understand what my choices are.

i have been reinstated for just over 5 yrs and still have not had my privileges back.

i am a single mom and have been to all the meeting that we can, doing our best outside of kids colds and flu's, not to mention car trouble, but i have always turned in my time each month and study reports, but still i can not answer.

GoddessRachel

They really aren't concerned with the every day publisher. Especially if you had been DISCIPLINED. We don't matter anymore.

I SECOND that. I once had an elder (one who had been on my judicial committee, and so knew of all my struggles, and how genuine I was) make a disparaging remark in response to my excitement about my new bible student that it would only be a matter of time before I dropped the ball on that one. They EXPECT you to fail if you have been DISCIPLINED. It's only a matter of time, in their eyes.

I'm not angry or bitter. I'm not practicing either. I'm inactive. I do not consider myself a Jehovah's Witness. I am so sorry for the mind games you have been put through. I don't know how else to say this but you will be much happier when you relinquish their control over you and live your life according to your own conscience, not the one the WTS prescribed for you.

Your elders believe it's only a matter of time until you fall away. Why don't you use that as a welcome reason to fade away from them, take some time for yourself, do your own REAL research, and prove the truth to yourself. Stick around here too; there are lots of wonderful people who understand what you have been through. I am one of them, was disfellowshipped for years, never missed a meeting the entire time I was disfellowshipped.

Peace,

Rachel

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My story: "Pop!" goes the Little Circuit Breaker

by TJ - iAmCleared2Land in

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friends

i guess it's about time i write my story.

i've put this off for a long time... primarily becuase, while i thought my story was bad, i've read so many worse and heart-rending stories here.

i think, though, there is some therapeutic value in 'letting it all out' with others who know what 'it' was like.

GoddessRachel

I also want to say that your sister is so strong and I'm so glad she was able to talk about her experiences. Her letter made me cry the most, but it could have also been the culmination of reading your entire story in one sitting. TJ, there are no words. Just, THANK YOU. Be good to your siblings. You have each other. Don't forget that you have each other.

Someone else asked this too: I'm wondering how your mother is. Your real mother. Have you had further contact with her? Also, have you read Bryan's book, Have You Seen My Mother? If not, read it. You two have been through many similar experiences.

You were one of the true JW's. Despite all the horrifying things your parents put you through, even when you had no food, no job, no roof over your head, you were still going to meetings and pioneering! You are so genuine, you took to heart all that the JW religion pretends to embrace. I just wanted to say that too. Be proud of how faithful you have always been. Don't ever let someone take that away from you, or let your memory of that waver.

Rachel