Absolutely. I feel like I'm between worlds and I'll never fit into either, won't be able to meet someone and have a normal loving relationship or have friends or family. I've been out two years and have made efforts to return, but wonder if I'll ever settle into either. I feel pretty lost.
daytona27
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Do you sometimes feel really disconected from people?
by Aphrodite ini thought i had been going really well in my life until my mothers recent attempt at shunning me.
now im feeling like i don't want to connect with anyone.
i'm kind of disconnecting myself from my friends even, withdrawing.
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I am Legend: Will Smith Heading Watchtower
by GermanXJW ini used the search function but have not found it.
sorry if this has already been brought up:.
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daytona27
Somebody sent that pic to me and it really ticked me off. It had a caption of "Ha! They are still standing!" They are still standing because the planes shot up the bridge to isolate Manhattan where the plague was. No buildings were destroyed anywhere in the city. And you usually don't see the headquarters buildings because nobody gives a crap what the Brooklyn skyline looks like...only the Manhattan skyline. Besides, it's just a movie. Were the buildings left IN the movie by some miracle to show...what? (end rant)
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Words of Wisdom,.....
by Twitch inwhen she walks away from you mad.
[ follow her ].
when she stare's at your mouth.
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daytona27
Does this apply to women everywhere? Even random ones? Coworkers too? I'm going to start applying this advice tomorrow and see how it goes :)
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straightened out but not going to be a liar
by helricha ini've straightened myself out concerning what i'm going to do about my life.
i am going to be reinstated (hopefully), just to get in and then fade away.
my problem is that i don't want to lie if i'm asked a direct question.
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daytona27
They are concerned that you are not in the same pattern of practice that you were. For instance, they will ask you "how is your morality?" They will not ask you "have you committed any acts of immorality since you were disfellowshipped." You were expelled and beyond their reach. They can't ask you that. They just want to make sure you aren't practicing it now. In fact, you could be into other things, as long as it's not the same thing...yes, it's true.
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Finally got Medication for Depression/bipolar
by KW13 inthey've finally given me medication - i am on a low dosage now, usually its 20mg but i am 10mg to see how it goes and then step it up in a week if i feel i need more, but sometimes it can take a month before your body tells you whats happening anyway.. whoo.. had my first tablet this morning, didnt feel brilliant but at least i know i'm not rolling on the floor and stuff lol..
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daytona27
Getting treated is just the start. Don't stop going to your doctor regardless of whether you feel better. Go to therapy, it helps. Realize that even if you do get off the meds, it might take years...don't try to rush it. After a suicide attempt, years of counseling, a divorce, hospital stay, countless.......days beyond counting of hysteria, psychosis, being out of my mind, distraught...the most awful emotions I can think of....weeks of debilitating depression, anger, etc, etc, etc....I'm past it all. I'm off meds and doing very well. I'm happy, I'm content. I finally feel like I'm better, but it took 7 years. Some people never get off them and I'm fully open to going back to them if necessary. I'm not blaming the org in my situation. I have a brother who is bipolar and he'll probably never be off them. I was marginally diagnosed as bipolar, they weren't sure. Seems like I have chronic, but relatively mild depression. It's under control, but I still take it one day at a time. Just remember to never stop taking care of yourself.
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Who else has zero friends?
by tsunami_rid3r ini am now a junior in college, and i have my own place.
i don't really like having roommates at all.
i just left in the middle of a lease because my ex-roommate was being a pain in the ass.
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daytona27
I can definitely say this applies to me. I'm in my mid thirties, no family (all in the org and I'm out). Everybody my age is happily married hanging out with their families, or two young and want to party or go scam on girls. So, I spend a lot of time by myself. I'm getting out and doing more things and like to do, meeting people along the way, but I've come to enjoy my downtime and the time I get to spend exploring things that don't necessarily involve other people. I know a lot of people that seem to have great social lives, but in reality, they don't. I think people like to almost fabricate it..."hey, we're having soooo much fuuuun!!!" When really, most of what people are doing is just plain lame. Go on trips by yourself, pick up a new hobby, go on an exploratory road trip...do things you've never done before, expand your horizons. To me, all of those things for personal growth are the best things a person can do for themselves and they aren't dependent on anyone else.
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Bizarre conversations
by RebelWife intula and i started talking about this yesterday.
can anybody tell us what's going on here or how to deal with these goofy conversations?
we're not talking about anything even remotely connected with religion, god, the bible or jws.
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daytona27
My ex did that a lot too. She answered what she thought I was asking instead of simply listening and answering according to the words I spoke. I would have to say, "listen to the words I'm speaking...there is no hidden motive or hidden questioning here". She couldn't grasp that. She thought she had to always find the hidden meaning in everything when there wasn't any and answer accordingly.
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So, you're in love with someone that you're not compatible with ....
by Frequent_Fader_Miles inperhaps it was "love at first sight", but then you get to know him/her more intimately and realize your goals and amitions couldn't be further apart.
not that he/she isn't a good person ... just not right for you.
the physical attraction is real, but issues that are important to you pale into insignificance in his/her mind.
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daytona27
I got involved with a sister that I had cared about for over 10 years. Not in love, but admired and was naturally attracted to. Both of us were married. We ended up both going through ugly divorces. Through it all, we ended up finding each other and fooled ourselves into thinking that we were the answer for what we each were missing in our lives and wanted to be together. We ended up getting in some trouble in the midst of everything that was going on with being divorced. I take full responsibility of course. It was a big mess. I was DFd, partially to make sure we didn't get married. She waited for me. She wouldn't talk to me, obviously, but our plan was that I would get through it and we'd eventually be together and everything would be perfect...better than perfect. I'd never been so in love, or felt such love from another person in my life. Over the months, she would email me blank emails letting me know she wanted to hear from me. After awhile, it really bothered me that she would be so selfish. She still had everything and I was completely alone. She thought she was covering herself by not actually emailing me content...sending blank emails to let me know she wanted me to email her. I was so completely in love with her, but one day, I decided I would never again be at the mercy of such a powerful, relentless emotion. I was tired of waking up everyday and being in terrible pain of not being able to be with her. I sent her an email telling her I never wanted to hear from her again. It was over. I didnt' want to be with her. It was a short period of time of intense pain, but was over and I was back in control of my life. My point is...don't give up control of who you are or how you feel to anything. Love isn't worth it. It comes and goes, but you, your sanity, it's the only thing you really have any ownership of and control over. I'll allow love into my life when it fits me, but I'm not going to ever allow it to control me or run my life again. It's just not worth it. Personal contentedness and peace is much more satisfying than being the slave of something that you're at the mercy of, completely owns you and you have no control over.
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Affectionate Men vs Macho Men
by Thinking of Leaving ini was watching a 2004 (re-run) episode of average joe hawaii and larissa picked the handsome, muscular man over the loving, patient, understanding not so cute man.
i'm not sure if you're familiar with the show but in it this beautiful model/actress has to choose between an average joe and a good looking guy.
they started her off with 16 average looking men and eventually threw in 8 good looking ones to heat things up a bit.
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daytona27
I believe most women, attractive or not, mistakenly assume that men are always interested in them. Truth is, a lot of the ones that are really worth having couldn't care less whether they are impressed by us, or notice us, or whatever. Weak men are constantly chasing women. The strong ones who know who they are don't. And, they don't need a woman in their life. When two people meet with completely mutual respect for who the other person actually is, then it's good. Otherwise, all the teenage stuff just isn't worth the hassle.
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Reveal something you hate about your town
by JH inhere, they decided to pick up the trash only once every 2 weeks from now on in the winter time......gee, years ago, they picked it up twice a week... .
just the rats will enjoy this....
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daytona27
Way too close to the beach, only takes 10 minutes to get there. Far too many of the best looking girls anywhere. Too quiet...I don't wait in enough traffic. Too close to one of best inlets to the ocean...only takes me an hour from garage to 15 miles out on the boat. Weather is too nice. Usually sunny and warm. Cost of living too low. Florida in general is low, but it's pretty low here. With not enough traffic, it only takes me 10 minutes to get home, so I can come home during lunch and take a power nap too. I think that about covers it!