Posts by Missanna

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MYSpace....How Do You REALLY feel about it?

by onlycurious in

jw
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this is for all those parents of teens out there..... do you really want your child on myspace?.

my 12 (almost 13) yr old opened her own acct without my permission....knowing full well i don't want her on it!!!.

she gets to do a lot but she's starting to try to be a lot more independent from me and when it comes to the web, i am very careful.. anyone dealt with this one?.

Missanna

i love it. it's gives me a chance to get to know new people and i've actually found people that i had lost contact with so it's all good.

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My Story

by Missanna in

ok for some reason i can't sleep tonight and feel like writing so i'm gonna tell my story of how i got to this point.

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ahhhhm.

sassy, thank you so much! wow... you know lately i've been going through the whole guilty don't want to be selfish stupid feelings i usaully have before i really try and get help. i convince myself i'm being too dramatic and tell myself i don't need therapy i can get along fine on my own dealing with these things in my head.... but i know it's not true. i know that what i do to myself, by convincing myself that i'm selfish in thinking i need help, is part of the problem but i can't seem to break it. You are a very strong person and thank you for sharing as you did. I'm honored that you think that what i went through is anything like the horrible things you have been through. You have helped me. i may have some questions for you a little later.

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Turned 21!!!!!!!!!!!!!

by why??? in

wow i turned 21 today and for the first time i'm genuinely excited about it.

i got alot of b'day wishes and just said "thank you" instead of trying to explain my way out of it...i felt so special and i even went to the store and bought a bacardi my parents laughed at me...and i don't feel guilty for enjoying the day i was born like i used to......baby steps to mental freedom!!!!

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Missanna

wow thank you, why???, i still can't believe how warm and upbuilding everyone is here. I cry every time i read the things everyone has said about my story. It just feels so good to finally have someone acknoledge the fact that i went through a lot. it really means so much to me. Thank you again. you seem like a wonderful person too. i hope you enjoyed your b-day i'm celebrating my 20th next month. I'm so excited it's going to be my first birthday that i've celebrated. that sounds silly but i'm so excited.

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What happened to you, to not to "feel the love" from the "friends"?

by swirlgirl in

thinking back at the start of me questioning that perhaps the "friends" were not really true friends at all, were some experiences i will relate below: please share those that you have experienced.. after i had carpel tunnel surgery and was in a cast.....not one of the "friends" asked me about it?

at first i thought they wanted to be "polite" and not draw attention to the fact of the cast...but thinking more about it afterwards...it was just plain unloving and uncaring.

while i was still in the cast....the cong.

Missanna

there are many of those experiences... All the gossip and talking behind other's backs i heard when i was out in service with all the other pioneers, One "sister" actually asked me to not associate with one of my friends because she wasn't baptized.

one of the most hurtful experiences of my life was when i went to the elders about me being sexually mellested by my brother and no comfort was given. it was all about them wanting to know the facts and of course they showed me scriptures talking about god being there for me but not one "i'm so sorry this happened" If you read my story you know that not only did they not atempt to give me any comfort for what i went through they tried to cover their asses by warning us against going to the police. i think that was when i really realized there is no REAL love among that organization. it's all a show. It's sick ,that's all, Just plain sick.

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What didn't you do because you were a JW that you now regret?

by jwfacts in

i just bought a bottle of wine for an exjw's 30th that i am about to run off to.

on it there was a great quote by mark twain:.

"twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do... explore.

Missanna

I've very young but the only regret i have is caring so much what people thought of me. I pioneered and lost a year of my life because of trying to be someone i'm not. i also regret judging people back then. No one has that right. i'm grateful to get out now and live my life the way i want and not care what someone thinks of me. it's a great feeling.

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My Story

by Missanna in

ok for some reason i can't sleep tonight and feel like writing so i'm gonna tell my story of how i got to this point.

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ahhhhm.

Missanna

honestly i've been holding off on seeing a therapist these days. will it really help?

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Turned 21!!!!!!!!!!!!!

by why??? in

wow i turned 21 today and for the first time i'm genuinely excited about it.

i got alot of b'day wishes and just said "thank you" instead of trying to explain my way out of it...i felt so special and i even went to the store and bought a bacardi my parents laughed at me...and i don't feel guilty for enjoying the day i was born like i used to......baby steps to mental freedom!!!!

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Missanna

HAPPPPY B-DAY. go get hammered!

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quick question

by Missanna in

if you got married while a witness... did any of the elders come to you and talk to you about the right and wrong sexual acts you can perform??

just curious.

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Missanna

that's weird i've never heard of that before. what are the symptoms?

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quick question

by Missanna in

if you got married while a witness... did any of the elders come to you and talk to you about the right and wrong sexual acts you can perform??

just curious.

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Missanna

yep... i cant believe how close minded they are when they are apart of the borg. its sad but i was one of those people that thought what they were saying was wrong but i would have never said anything about it.

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Is it weird that I don't miss it?

by bluesbreaker59 in

ok, other than my father, i don't miss anything about being a dub at all.

seriously, i love my life right now, its great, thinking for myself, doing what i want, etc., etc.. i've only been out 3 months, officially, and i find no "void" or anything.

i've got a bunch of great friends on the outside, that i had for years while being jw, and then i have my mother and all her family supporting me.

Missanna

Congrats! i know exactly how you feel. the first taste of REAL freedom is soooooo nice. but every once in a while the guilt comes back but you realize it's just what was drilled into you for so long. the best advice i can give you is if anyone from your old hall tries to make you feel guilty don't let them and don't try to explain why you left. it won't make any difference. just let them talk, they get bored easily. lol again CONGRATS!