i was raised jw and of course the whole theory that a man is the head and the woman must respect her husband and be in subjection to his authority was ingrained in me from a young age.
my mother, (oddly enough) chose the jw religion, dragged my father in kicking and screaming (he later served as an elder for 17 years) and she complained constantly about men being in control and her pains as a woman in subjection.
now, i already have a good idea about my mother's problems.
Believing in this got me into more trouble than anything in my life!!! I call BS! and it started me doubting in the existence of God much less the Bible.
Sore subject....I guess!!! When a smart woman plays idiot for her....WHOLE ADULT LIFE....it a hard thing to get over.
Sorry for the rant......
wings
well i decided to buy a powerball ticket again.. so wish me luck and share in the weath.
so easy its sick!!.
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So wish me luck and share in the wealth
So.....GOOD LUCK!......I'll expect my cut, how will you divide it?
married 42 yrs and ready to leave.
my husband is a jw and has been for 38 yrs.
i even joined from 1974 to 1985 to keep my family together.
Welcome!
Sounds to me like you are oppressed in your relationship. 42 years is a long time. Only thing I can say is try to separate the JW thing from the other issues.
You don't have to be alone in this. Can you reach out to friends or family? If you care to share more, there are many here who can help.
wings
The question being "if I were Jehovah"....which is hard to get my head around since I am MAD at him.....so....but the question being so simple and funny, deserves a try.
So, I would sit on my thrown in front of all of creation... and think....soy...the perfect food (kind of like an apple)....I think that I will make a beautiful cake, and not let them eat it. I will flavor it with knowledge of good and evil and then forbid them to even want to taste it.....but then they will.....hahaha.....another one bites the dust! One more for my side!
wings the dark side
yesterday i had a little breakdown...laid down for a nap and woke up 17 hours later!
not so unexpected, just never done that before.. the first thing that came to my fogging brain this morning was that in a week i am moving.
back to colorado and to a town where i know hundreds of jw's.
Discretion is the better part of valor
Flipper, I love that....it is so true, I needed a reminder. He WILL make moves to have them come see me. I know it, so I just best get ready, and get my emotions in balance. JWD is good for that....just when I think I am ready to flip out, I am encouraged to take it in and think about it first.
Thank you.
Sounds to me like your autonomy is just beginning.
IP....you are right I hope....been through so much....just a little more of a push, and I'll be there.
I never left Jehovah. I left a cult that is leading you straight to eternal separation from God
Honesty, I have had my faith blasted into small pieces....glad you can have such clarity on your faith. Yes separation from God...I can relate to.
sometimes you have a topic that lights up the board, a virtual flow of thoughts and expressions, other times you.
feel like just a extra pint of water going over niagara falls !
are the words you type here like yesterdays .
I think unless you are suicidal or talking about boobs or such.....it is hit or miss. We all have that experience.
Problem is, sometimes you really need attention, and if you are not good at marketing your topic with your subject line, you might not get the attention you deserve.
Also, it matters who is on the board at the time you post your topic. Bumping your thread can help.....btt
As for me....I get so caught up in my own mess, it is sometimes hard for me to move onto others....I am hoping that will change as I move through this place I am in. Please be patient. I will pay attention to your topics in the future.
wings
yesterday i had a little breakdown...laid down for a nap and woke up 17 hours later!
not so unexpected, just never done that before.. the first thing that came to my fogging brain this morning was that in a week i am moving.
back to colorado and to a town where i know hundreds of jw's.
All in all, you've got the power. This is your life and you have the right to live it as you wish.
Tks, changeling....I have to now, no doubt. I'll try not to buy trouble, they may never show up, I just don't know.
If you do DA, you're welcome to the club...
[email protected] you think it is better than DF'd? and can they DF you just for being completely totally against everything to do with WTBTS?? Just wondering? Heard so many conflicting stories here on JWD.
You will be surprised how little they want to help those that are not fully assimilated drones.
OTWO...hope you are right. I have LOVED being left alone. If they really cared they would have called me this past year. They both know where I am. Just the whole "in the territory" thing that bothers me. Like I have to be dealt with now that I am on someones car route.
in december i started reading things and thinking with an open mind (for the first time in my life).
i'm still discovering things daily that irritate me about the wts.
i've been to about half a dozen meetings since march.
would you stop yapping with your apostate friends and make me some dinner!
I take it back Switch....feed him some monkey food. Yap away.
yesterday i had a little breakdown...laid down for a nap and woke up 17 hours later!
not so unexpected, just never done that before.. the first thing that came to my fogging brain this morning was that in a week i am moving.
back to colorado and to a town where i know hundreds of jw's.
oompa, the taking away...just means that you had a chance to speak you mind to someone....let some air in to allow the honesty to grow....it need air sometimes.
As far as me being bad.....don't think I'll be pulling any other DF offenses except having a pent up desire to tell everyone in the entire world how I feel about WTBTS and....so many on this board can relate to that. Something like handing one of my friends a copy of Crisis of Conscience and telling them to come back after they have read it. Then we will talk.
This whole shunning thing I have just begun to experience....no more blending....no more fade....I either hold my own, or I DA or get DF'd. I'm in conflict...but don't think I'll be buddying up with my soon to be ex husband's best friends.
Quirky....I have been holding off for family too. Might not make it through this. Freedom is a good taste, hard to resist. I have been holding on for so long, just don't know how much more I can take.
wings
in december i started reading things and thinking with an open mind (for the first time in my life).
i'm still discovering things daily that irritate me about the wts.
i've been to about half a dozen meetings since march.
I can't remember...were you born in?
If so it could take a life time. Not to leave you on that note.
Resolve is in your grasp...you have a good man in your husband, and your are not alone there.
Reconciling a lifetime of it can take longer.
thinking of you today....wings
