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  insanity

  by flower in

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  2. medical

  i am definately insane although i dont think it can all be blamed on the knowledge i've obtained recently and trying to deal with the aftermath.

  at least part of the reason is probably genetic.

  so where are the angels of mercy for people with incurable insanity?

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  flower

  hi dave,

  well it sure doesnt feel like i am handling this well but i sure hope you are right.

  thanks for the words of encouragement.

  flower
  ps. hey you havent been making us laugh lately, hope you are not totally stressed out.
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  insanity

  by flower in

  1. watchtower
  2. medical

  i am definately insane although i dont think it can all be blamed on the knowledge i've obtained recently and trying to deal with the aftermath.

  at least part of the reason is probably genetic.

  so where are the angels of mercy for people with incurable insanity?

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  flower

  aaah, i forgot you were an aussie. I've heard that the aussie sense of humor is a bit different then the states. can run into problems especially when you are only typing and not able to see facial expressions ect. thats ok, no offense taken.
  ya gotta admit tho, it sounds a bit vulgar ;)

  take care

  flower
  ps. book recommendations would be cool...you still have my addy right?
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  insanity

  by flower in

  1. watchtower
  2. medical

  i am definately insane although i dont think it can all be blamed on the knowledge i've obtained recently and trying to deal with the aftermath.

  at least part of the reason is probably genetic.

  so where are the angels of mercy for people with incurable insanity?

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  flower

  yea yea refiner, i know what you meant. i'm more concerned with that last little comment which i wont even repeat...

  flower
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  Ignorant Judgemental CO's and DO's

  by Scully in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  badwillie wrote the following experience about an ignorant comment from a do:.

  case in point:.

  a friend received a full scholarship from a local college to study to become a veternarian.

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  flower

  scully,

  that was great how you handled that Overseer. reading that story brought some pain back to me but thats good cause i need to deal with it. i remember as a little girl wanting to get my ears pierced so bad but my father being an elder refused to let us. i didnt finally get them pierced until i was 18 and talked my mom into letting me do it for my hs graduation ceremony. can you believe the nerve of these guys meddling in every little aspect of our lives and pretending that there is a scriptural reason for it? ugh its just sickening to think of how hard our lives were and all so our fathers could be big shots and look good in front of the asshole overseers.

  anyway..YOU GO GIRL!

  flower
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  insanity

  by flower in

  1. watchtower
  2. medical

  i am definately insane although i dont think it can all be blamed on the knowledge i've obtained recently and trying to deal with the aftermath.

  at least part of the reason is probably genetic.

  so where are the angels of mercy for people with incurable insanity?

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  flower

  thanks yall. hey, guess what? i'm not insane after all.

  see for yourself http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/forum/thread.asp?id=19948&site=3
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  Post-Cult Trauma Syndrome

  by FreePeace in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  here is some interesting info from a website at http://www.refocus.org/postcult.html that may help those just leaving the wts to understand the feelings they are experiencing (and the rest of us too).

  it is not about jw's per se, but it still applies.. --------------------------.

  post-cult trauma syndrome*.

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  flower

  Cath,

  just wanted to say thanks cause i feel just like you. its been a couple of years since i was df'd and like you until recently i still thought they had the truth so i just muddled thorough every day knowing that i was going to die at armaggeddon any day now. things got worse when i had my kid and i was very depressed and emotionally unstable. it helped to come here and hear the truth but for some reason the old feelings dont just go away upon finding out. i wish they did. actually i thought they would at first cause i was so excited at first. but its not as easy as it should be.

  anyway i'm rambling but your post really touched me cause it described me so much. especially when you said you feel like you dont belong anywhere or fit. and the ups and downs are very bad especially cause i end up hurting people that are trying to help me when i am down and then i feel even worse.

  take care and know you arent alone.

  flower
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  Post-Cult Trauma Syndrome

  by FreePeace in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  here is some interesting info from a website at http://www.refocus.org/postcult.html that may help those just leaving the wts to understand the feelings they are experiencing (and the rest of us too).

  it is not about jw's per se, but it still applies.. --------------------------.

  post-cult trauma syndrome*.

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  flower

  so what your saying freepeace, is that i'm not insane? is that it? geez, just when i had it all figured out and closed the case.

  seriously though, thanks for the post. sounds a lot like me. i guess "post- cult trauma syn-drome" is a little better than 'insane' anyway.

  thanks for bein here
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  insanity

  by flower in

  1. watchtower
  2. medical

  i am definately insane although i dont think it can all be blamed on the knowledge i've obtained recently and trying to deal with the aftermath.

  at least part of the reason is probably genetic.

  so where are the angels of mercy for people with incurable insanity?

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  flower

  good point refiner,

  guess that explains it all. wish someone had told me that 20 years ago.

  oh well,

  flower
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  insanity

  by flower in

  1. watchtower
  2. medical

  i am definately insane although i dont think it can all be blamed on the knowledge i've obtained recently and trying to deal with the aftermath.

  at least part of the reason is probably genetic.

  so where are the angels of mercy for people with incurable insanity?

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  flower

  i am definately insane although i dont think it can all be blamed on the knowledge i've obtained recently and trying to deal with the aftermath. at least part of the reason is probably genetic. part just bad luck. part shy personality. i'm sure dubdom played a big part. the bastard father bears more than a little responsibility. as does the mother that turned a blind eye when i needed her support. maybe i am the biggest reason myself. maybe i'm just too weak minded. maybe there is some part of the brain that others use to pull through things and i just dont have that. or just dont use it correctly. anyway, here i am. insane as the guy in the straight jacket in the rubber room. just a different kind of insanity. i wish i was one of the brilliantly insane who spend years plotting some intricate plan to take over the world. but i'm unfortunately just insane.

  i dont mean foaming at the mouth and shouting obscene language kind of insane. i mean the kind of insane where you are incapable of emotional growth. incapable of maintaining human relationships. ya know, crazy. not like rubber room crazy. i mean the kind of crazy where you look normal to people and you are intelligent and seem to be normal in almost every way. and the things people find unpleasant about you they write off as moodiness or snobbiness or superiority complex. cause they have no idea whats going on in your head.

  maybe theres another word for it. i like 'insane' though. its an incurable disease. like any physical disease that is deadly and incurable. only this one is in the head so people dont see it. but they should try to understand that its the same thing. i mean people that assist terminally ill people to die are called 'angels of mercy' and get support from some people. and those who dont support them still understand. so where are the angels of mercy for people with incurable insanity? not fair that some people have to do it themselves.

  flower
  and yes this is the same person who wrote the post earlier tonight in response to all those touching replys. i'm insane remember? i can change my mind on a whim. no i dont have MPD. i just have insanity.
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  Today is my birthday

  by TR in

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  2. friends

  anyone want to give me cyber hugs and kisses?.

  tr.

  "yk is his name, false prophecy is his game"

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  flower

  hApPy BiRtHdAy tO yOu!!!

  LOVE,

  flower