Tatiana -
I know there are really no words that will make it better, I am so sorry for your loss. I am glad that you feel the love everyone here has for you, I hope that you are comforted knowing how much we care.
I lost my son almost 2 years ago and I had a lot of support. I am sorry you have to deal with the JW nonsense/ignorance on top of such a great loss.
Please feel free to express your feelings and never, ever feel guilty for your emotions. We're listening and you have our love and support. Our hearts ache for you.
Thank you for sharing the pictures of your beauties.
Robin