Butterknife of Jah the first thing you've got wrong is that you obviously feel it is alright for you to engage in independant thinking. You're not supposed to do that, you know.
The second problem is that you have used your illicit independant thinking to justify and rationalize your being here among the apostates, the DFed, the DAed; you know, the scum of JW society, the outcasts.
So far, then, you've engaged in one forbidden activity to justify your participation in a second forbidden activity which is tantamount to yet a third, and that is you are running ahead of Jehovah's visible organization, the FDS. The slave, you will have noticed, has no outreach program which attempts to regain, reclaim, rehabilitate DFed ones or anyone else. What gives you the right to engage in, so far, these three strikes against you and what you're doing?
If you really feel you're doing something that is approved by your Jehovah, then tell us to what congregation you belong, in what city, and provide along with that the telephone number of two or three of your congregation elders.
You really are wasting your time and ours you know. There are quite a few regulars here who, on an intellectual basis, discussing JW matters or any else for that matter, could eat your lunch before you had the slightest idea what was going on.
I can only arrive at the conclusion that you are severely deluded. You're not exactly welcome here. And if your elders knew what you are up to, you wouldn't be welcome there either. So you are walking a dangerous tight rope, aren't you? The slightest screw up and you're going to be dog food.
francois