outsmartthesystem.
There has been so much good advise given... just taking time to think upon it will give you direction
and some peace of mind in knowing what to expect and how to take steps to guard first and foremost your own sanity.
So sorry to here about your situation but we all the the mentality within the JW's.. it's us vs. the entire world right ?
Everything not directly from the WT. could be from Satan.
I can totally relate to your depression and the thought of not even enjoying things as before.
All I can say is don't put yourself in the role of bad guy with the kids , only time can be your friend at this point.
Please do seek counsel simply to have a neutral party to hear you.
Please do nice things for yourself ... pamper yourself with dinners out , new clothes, football games whatever .
I understand good buddy... I know advise seems so easy to give to others, living in the reality is much more difficult
there is a flood of different emotions resentment, anger, frustration, hurt for the loss of peace and happiness you once had.
I pray that with time and thoughtful reason you may find a peaceful path to follow
please look over this... even coming to understanding grief will help you sort it out
Stages of Grieving After a Relationship
http://www.livestrong.com/article/128576-stages-grieving-after-relationship/
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pw-hGKruOYQ
Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself