Nilfun,
I've been away for approx. 6 years and feel the same as you do. It's hard to shake what we learned.The scriptures go thru my mind constantly, like an endless tape. "Jehovah is a Jealous God,"......"The broad path that leads to destruction."....."what sharing does the light have with darkness"........and on and on and on.
But I never had too much trouble with Thanksgiving, always enjoyed it. Now you've got me thinking about its real origins.....ripping off the native Americans. More guilt.
FreeFallin