Six years! wow
This feeling you have is quite normal because you want to be with your family and have everyone invoved in the conversation and in fun stuff with you, but you don't. I believe Satan the Devil feels the same like you, even though he's been away from his celestial family many more years than you.
'Don't follow your own thoughts' because the way Jehovah God organized and educate is far better than any philosophy or doctrine exsisting in the crule and unjust world that belongs to Satan and his minions of Demons. Love is all you need and time to repair any damage you may have caused to your parents and siblings. Because you aren't the only one hurting, they are hurting too for not having you in their lives.
Father Almighty Jehovah, Please ease the pain by the faith she has of you in her heart. Bless her acording to your will, and guide her away from any dark and confused place she may be trapped in. Allow your children to return because they want to and not becouse the feel obligated or forced to. For these are the ones that will trully bless you and love you and follow you. In the name of Jesus Christ - AMEN!
-Aleman