i feel like running for a long long time or just losing it and checking myself into a hospital.
but instead, i have to stay here and work.
how do you feel?
I just got back from having dinner with my wife. She is working till 10:00 so we met at the local great pizza place and I had a few beers, Labatt, and I am feeling very MELLOW at this time. In fact, I am having another LABATT as we speak, er, type, er.........drink.
NMG
Hi MOMZ!!
i received a rather pointed reminder that the co's visit is more important than family that has been gone for a long time and is only around for a brief time...but oh no..cant miss out on the co visit..eventho he says the same thing every year and does the same friggin thing every year...sigh.... i am trying to get past a lot of the old feelings...but i am reminded of the power that the wt has upon its followers...sigh.
some things got easier when dad died...and some things got harder...anyhow....i bet that the co's visit is the same droll waste of gas going to the meetings with revitalized gusto or desperately wishing to be in the same car group with the co...what a waste...but my family gets somethin out of it.... i however am doing quite good...it just pains me a bit to see two of the most important people in my life be led around by the nose by a flawed system that makes them act the way they do...nyhow.... -z-.
OH! The CO is coming...OH! The CO is coming.....BFD!! I never quite understood why the BOE got so ruffled when he came. I mean, they were all brothers in the lord, right? Did they have something to hide? It was kinda like a spot inspection in the military. Everything had to be just so, as though it hadn't been all along? He wore his pants the same way I did. I even supplied him with some of his clothes at times, cuz I felt sorry or his taste in clothes.
Some of those Co's have long since dropped off the scene, and our families are still our families. I have known Co's that had affairs with other sisters in the congs that they serviced. I have known CO's that liked their booze. I have played golf with them and have NEVER been intimidated by ANY of them. My cousin was a substitute CO and he was the just like you and me.
Most of them are doing a job, others take it very seriously, and make each member of the cong feel like they OWE an accounting to them. So WHAT!!?? They're on their way out anyways and then you'll have a local elder feeling his oats, like he's something SPECIAL now?
Start calling them by their first name and see their response.....BROTHER?? I'm just like you my friend, just hanging in here like you.
NMG
my daughter is married and lives in another state.
i miss her but i'm happy for her and have long ago adjusted to this situation.
we have a wonderful relashionship and talk almost daily on the phone and see each other about every 6 to 8 weeks.. my son is in college about 45 minutes from home.
Ah, Yes, I remember it well.......I raised two sons. The older one moved out at 19, got an apartment with his best friend. Only lived about a half hour away. We were always in touch. He continued to go to the same hall as us, so we so him alot. His job took him overseas, yes at his young age, very smart indeed. I was able to live my young life over again through him as I had left home at 18, for the service. My younger son didn't leave until he got married, at 20.
The happiest moments came when they got married, and the saddest moments as they were now being loved by some one else. My ex and I did begin taking 3 day weekend trips but that faded as did our marriage. Life changes with the times and events that shape that change.
Just enjoy the moments that you have while you have them in your presence. They grow up just like that and then you have other issues to deal with. Even though they may leave, temporarily, they will always be YOUR KIDS!!!! Keep them close, keep them in your frame of mind as regards the tower.
NMG
i was a chaperone for my daughter's out-of-town volleyball tournament last weekend - got to meet another mom that had grown up in the same area i grew up in.
she proceeded to ask about my childhood, etc.
and i had to spill the beans on my jw background (i usually keep this to myself!
I HAD one of my 2 best friends drop dead, heart attack. . We laughed together, fished together, drank together, had our kids get married together, to each other. We were the essence of 2 guys enjoying each others friendship. His wife is a dub. He was not. She was Judgemental as hell. Our kids married each other. The they got divorced. Still, we were the best of friends.
So, my BUDDIE dropped dead, just like that, we didn't see it coming. He never complained. So, my wife and I went to the funeral home and I BALLED my eyes out. The whole place was crawling with jw's . NOT a single one of them showed any concern about his passing. They were all off in their little groups talking about everything else BUT MY BUDDIE!!
I had quit going to the kh by then and I knew that the memorial talk would not have said a word about WHO he WAS and who really cared about him. I, needless to say didn't go to the talk. I had said my good byes to him in private and with DIGNITY. The dignity that only a TRUE friend could give him.
My thoughts
NMG
the poster preceding you reminds you of.
inspired by fhn.
Lana lane
this is a follow-up of my thread of june 18th.
my son, 30, inactive jw, divorced.
his girlfriend, non jw, much younger than him, really cute really sweet.
Hey Mr. Flipper.......Good to see you friend. Ya, I have given alot more thought to the situation since posting the thread. As always, I have gotten some great input from everyone here. It's always nice to know that you have GOOD friends here at JWD. Seeing as how I haven't spoken to my ex in over a year, I'll just leave her be. She has her opwn set of problems with her new jw spouse, I have heard that he is rather anal about most every day things.
I am happy in my own life and really don't need her back in mine, in ANY way. I don't know how my older son will take all of this, as I know that he is active but I don't think that he'll do anything to disrupt or jeopardise his brothers FREE life. Once again, Thanks go out to everyone that has a hand in guiding my thoughts on this matter.
NMG
this is a follow-up of my thread of june 18th.
my son, 30, inactive jw, divorced.
his girlfriend, non jw, much younger than him, really cute really sweet.
BFD.....I had this feeling from him when I asked whether she was a jw that perhaps he bristled when I made the comment " GOOD". I can't read his mind but there was just something there in his tone that makes me wonder about him and maybe he still has sympathy for the dubs.
I reallly need to have a one on one with him, but I don't want to rock his boat too much because he is bi-polar. As I said, I am not going to be the one to rock his boat. It's not my business. I have been trying to stay away from the subject of the jw's with both my sons . But, the time may come when the younger one will be in a circumstance that will open him up to some plain hard facts about the jw's.
NMG
this is a follow-up of my thread of june 18th.
my son, 30, inactive jw, divorced.
his girlfriend, non jw, much younger than him, really cute really sweet.
Ya, it is my one true desire that he have a GREAT life and gets out from under the spell of the tower and his mother. I think that he may fear his mother, once she finds out the life that he is really pursuing. She knows that he lives a wordly life, of course, she places all of the blame on me. He learned how to have an affair on his wife from me, porn, drinking, bars, loose women, the World Trade Center was my fault, kennedy's assasination............you get the picture.
this is a follow-up of my thread of june 18th.
my son, 30, inactive jw, divorced.
his girlfriend, non jw, much younger than him, really cute really sweet.
Ya know something, I am enjoying this new relationship with him. But, I somehow get this feeling that maybe he doesn't think that anything will happen to him??I have no intention of bringing it up with him. He's a big boy and it's not for dad to tell him how to live his life, even according to jw standards. None of my business either way. I would love for him to see the hypocracy of jwism, maybe he does.
I do get this deep down feeling that maybe, just maybe, he has the romantic notion of bringing this gal INTO you....know....what.....
I've seen it all done before, haven't you? Maybe to please his mother?? I'm going to call him tomorrow and tell him hopw much we enjoyed his visit and how much we enjoyed his girl friend. Then, maybe I cangget a feel for what's going on in his head.
NMG
my wt librery is going in the recycle bin a little at the time.what did you do with the wt books?
I threw them all out long before I realized that I was a fader.
NMG
