i am on the same wavelength as emma
my preferred gifting org is kiva.org
otherwise... drop a fin in the salvation army bucket...
happymerrychrismukkah and joyous ramadakwanzivus
for those of you who signed up for the secret santa 2009 list here is where you give your secret santa an idea of things you might like.
it's hard enough to give gifts to people you know nevermind people you have never met.. so bearing in mind the $15 limit give us an idea what your favorite interests, colors are, or what things you might like.. in the past people have suggested something for their new christmas tree, a book, a cd of their favorite music, something from where their secret santa lives (something with the city's or country's name on it or an widely known item.. once people get their name they will be able to check back here to get an idea of what your interest is before they go shopping.. if you say "anything" or don't post then expect a surprise..
i fall into the sad bracket of not likiing them.
sorry but i spend my whole working day being unrelentingly polite and charming ... when i get home i want to switch off and slob out.
i do not want the doorbell to ring and have to play host!
the inner circle can let themselves in
even if i am not there.... there are about
3 people outside the family that rank....
other than that, it totally depends
on what that current moment presents....
usually, it isnt a thrill
the equivalent of 32 years of preaching a baptism - effectively you say?.
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bangalore.
i wonder how the stats
would play out if only
REAL field service time
was submitted.... bet
the total numbers of
FS would drop like a rock
i think, that since i left the cult, i've finally learned to love myself.
i know i'm a better person now.
that i'm good and lovabl, (and if there is a god he may also be happy with me.
my kids cannot believe
i can take a 5 hr drive
and not have the radio
or a CD playing....
my answer to them is this:
i enjoy my own company...
if i have the time and the quiet
i will sit for hours just thinking....
problem solving, review of information
that i found compelling.... just stream
of consciousness that entertains me immensely
i think i am very satisfied with
the direction i am headed and
i am gonna say: yep, i love me
my parents have big problems in their marriage and my mom is now planning to leave my father.
i feel i have to be strong for their sake but i don't live near them unfortunately...we've been a tight family and it's very sad to see the family split after so long.
i left my marriage and the cult last year, my sister treats me as if i'm dead and no man wants me.... sometimes i'm so tired of having to be strong.
hey mate! chin up...
tight knit families sometimes
unravel despite the best intentions
just recently, like a week ago,
i had "the conversation" with
my husband that officially puts
us on the path to permanent
arrangements to live separate
lives... sentimentaly sad but
realistically the best course ....
he has worked out of state for a year
and we both realize there is no going back...
we are better friends now than
we have been for years... and
because we have 4 children, our
paths will cross for the rest of our
lives.... we are both content with
the reality... no WAY there will be
a reconciliation, but i AM looking
forward to seeing meryl streep's
new film: it's complicated (aint it, tho!)...
we even talked about going on holiday
together when the economy and other
issues settle down to a degree...
dont despair! this is not necessarily a bad thing
for your parents to pursue... if there is reasoned
talk and generous intention
how ironic!
i think she's trying to get reinstated so she blanked me.
we used to be pretty good friends.. .
nailed it, mr flipper ... JWs: bringing smug to a whole other level
M 2 , i feel ya, mate.....
just found the new married name
of an old chum who had been DF'd
and wouldnt you know it.... reinstated
and had just done her first talk...
let the shunning begin
i'm having spaghetti and meatballs, salad with blue cheese, and cabernet.
it's the antidote to turkey dinner/leftovers..
huevos rancheros
meaning... on this website, no longer a jw or at least no longer beliving anymore?
i never did, even 18 months ago it would have seemed impossible, unthinkable.
even though looking back the seeds of doubt had been sown for some time, i just never allowed myself to think about them... vvv dangerous thing to do!.
nope.... in fact i AGONIZED over what eventually
i came to know as my "fade".... feeling like sh!t
and totally unworthy....
i will forever BLESS the day
i ended up here.... and learned
the real truth about the Truth TM ....
serendipity is my new god!!!
ETA: hey, it was 2 yrs ago wednesday!!!
how utterly apropos it is near US thnxgvg!
some witnesses come here and try to rebel rouse.
some treat us very harshly and are very judgmental.
what do you say to such witnesses?.
i follow "cesar's way"
no talk, no touch, no eye contact
i had enough of that blather
as a willing assimilate..
no bluddy way am i gonna get
embroiled in it as a free mind...
their words on a post look
like blah blah blahblahblah blah blah
just wondering if anyone has experience with this or knows an x-jw who has been diagnosed.
after years of trying to un-do everything through countless therapies, it appears this has been the problem all along.
i sit with my new psychologist, an expert in dissociative disorders, and she has all the jw lingo down, which tells me she's treated other x-jw's.
my experience is outside the professional
realm and deals with individuals who had
not been in therapy until after the emergence
of alters...others....
one system i was privvy to had 2 very young
manifestations, an angry pre-adolescent and
the 18 YO who held the music..... the birth person
had been SA'd by both her parents, a grandfather
and was passed around at parties...
one person i know is not the birth person....
the alter who is out says she is afraid if the
birth person, the "core" emerges, she will
disappear....
i sing lullabyes to the littles, write children's
stories for the middles, let the angry ones
rage and believe them when they say they
are who they say they are...
i can tell by the angle of N's head that
the 18 YO is fronting....
i can tell when D's blue eyes look green"
that n**** has emerged
when H is rocking when she sits on the floor
it can only be r**
i know one person who was reintergrated
after the fact, but had met other people
who had known her alters.... evidently
a successful reintegration can carry traits
of all the facets of the system
there is nothing anyone can say to
me to make me doubt the reality
of DID... the pain expressed is too
real and the longing for trust is
beyond heartbreaking.....