Posts by FreudianSlip

i dont want to think about it, and outwardly its not apparent to other people, but it is something that seems to pervade my thinking, something that haunts me.. perhaps i should be excited, because i realise that on the whole what i came to believe as a jw was fabricated, and maybe there is an amazing afterlife to experience, but at the same time i do tend to agree with jws about death being the end, i just dont agree with the whole resurrection claim they add on to it.. i have known two people who were temporarily 'dead' on the operating table, one of whom was dead for several minutes(one of these people is a friend who shrugs it off like it was nothing!).

FreudianSlip

beks-

I'm not all too young (31) . Unfortunately, I can't control my obessions, so I try to understand why I have them. "Fake it till you make it." <--Agreed!

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Does anyone else have a morbid obsession?

by bulgogiboy in

i have to admit to having developed a very strong obsession with my own mortality in recent years, since breaking free from jw doctrine.

i think about death a lot, and if i really sit and think about it hard, i can freak myself out big time!

i dont want to think about it, and outwardly its not apparent to other people, but it is something that seems to pervade my thinking, something that haunts me.. perhaps i should be excited, because i realise that on the whole what i came to believe as a jw was fabricated, and maybe there is an amazing afterlife to experience, but at the same time i do tend to agree with jws about death being the end, i just dont agree with the whole resurrection claim they add on to it.. i have known two people who were temporarily 'dead' on the operating table, one of whom was dead for several minutes(one of these people is a friend who shrugs it off like it was nothing!).

FreudianSlip

Villabolo-

Depression isn't new to me. I've taken antidepressants off and on over the years. It's just a part of who I am. I can rationally see through my depression and I understand intellectually why I am obsessed with death. Right now I just feel lonely is all. I just don't have anyone in my life who I have a deep, emotional connection with.. and I want that so badly that I practically smother anyone who shows even fleeting bits of interest.

Woe is me

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Ex-Jehovah's Witness Survey...

by Tuesday in

jw
friends

hey everyone.

another idea came to me tonight while discussing the pew forum survey about how only 37% of jehovah's witnesses remain in the religion from childhood.

the recent watchtower article where it says the majority of people who leave the religion do so in order to commit sin was brought up predictably.

FreudianSlip

Name: B

Gender: Female

Age: 31

How were you introduced to Jehovah's Witnesses: Born in

How did you leave the religion: Disfellowshipped

What Age did you leave?: 22

Were you Baptized: Yes

What General reason did you leave the religion: Fornicated/Didn't Believe it was (the whole) Truth

How did you feel about the doctrine before leaving: I had some doubts but none that were enough to have ever caused me to leave.

Did your feelings about the doctrine effect the way you left?: No, I was ratted out

If you were disfellowshipped for sin, did your feelings on the doctrine effect you sinning in the first place? No, I was just horny

Did you research the religion's teachings after leaving? Yes, extensively.

What are your feelings on the doctrine of the religion since leaving? I'm agnostic so I find most religious doctrine to be wrong.

How do you feel about the organization since leaving?: It's a cult

How do you feel about the people since leaving?: They are people. Some good, some bad.

How do you feel about discussing your time as a Jehovah's Witness?: I freely talk about my religous background

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Does anyone else have a morbid obsession?

by bulgogiboy in

i have to admit to having developed a very strong obsession with my own mortality in recent years, since breaking free from jw doctrine.

i think about death a lot, and if i really sit and think about it hard, i can freak myself out big time!

i dont want to think about it, and outwardly its not apparent to other people, but it is something that seems to pervade my thinking, something that haunts me.. perhaps i should be excited, because i realise that on the whole what i came to believe as a jw was fabricated, and maybe there is an amazing afterlife to experience, but at the same time i do tend to agree with jws about death being the end, i just dont agree with the whole resurrection claim they add on to it.. i have known two people who were temporarily 'dead' on the operating table, one of whom was dead for several minutes(one of these people is a friend who shrugs it off like it was nothing!).

FreudianSlip

I am obsessed with thinking about my own death. It's caused me to question my agnosticism lately. I very much want to believe that something happens after we die. I have been really depressed lately and therefore thinking about the futility of life. These thoughts get worse when I am down. Down is the only direction I have been going lately.

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Poll Question: Would you personally want to live forever?

by The Berean in

not i ....

FreudianSlip

I would want to live forever. It's exciting to imagine the technological advances and alien life forms that I would see.

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Are You Afraid of Terrorist Attacks Happening To You Like It Did In India?

by minimus in

jw
friends

it's horrible to see so many innocent people brutalized by terrorists.. new york's trains are the subject of possible terrorism, according to well placed sources.. when will it ever end?.

FreudianSlip

I live in Orlando which is one of the world's top tourist spots. So yes, it crosses my mind from time to time that we could be a target. Still, I don't let it rule my life. I'm far more worried about how I'm going to pay off my student loans, etc.