Mauddib, welcome to our board. I was listening to the tone of your first 2 posts. Are you aware that most of the people on the board have separated themselves from Jehovah's Witnesses?
You said you suspect many of us are scared out of our wits at the mere mention of the word "Watchtower". I beg to differ. If fear controlled us, we would still have stayed within the confines of the organization, being good little meeting attenders and trying to please the men who run the organization.
We have hundreds of members on this board. Not all will be able to read your post during a weekday afternoon and respond to your question. But the response you DID get was a fairly representative sample of the opinions of most members of the board. I didn't see any fear of the WT Society in any of their responses, which is to be expected because they are no longer governed by that Society.
However, it is true that fear can hold people "still on the inside" who know they can and should leave. Also, people who do leave the JW's often do suffer irrational fears early on about "Armageddon is coming", "Jehovah is seeing me", and other irrational guilt feelings from not belonging any more. However, with the proper support and unconditional love from non-JW's and even from this board, people can get past their feelings of fear and move on.
So your point about fear is not totally unwarranted. But I believe most members of this board have gone past that point. Do you see what I mean?
BTW, sorry to hear that your ex-wife could not join you in your journey to freedom. I'm going through something similar, and it's so sad and unneeded.
I hope you enjoy your visits to this board.
GopherAlways do right; this will gratify some people and astonish the rest.
Mark Twain (1835-1910)