I have felt exactly the same emotions that you felt Cedars, and because of those very emotions I avoid too much contact with my Jw family.
What is so very hard for me is biting my tongue, for instance my older sister will delight in telling me how well a B/study is "progressing" and "doing so well in the ministry".
It is on the tip of my tongue to say something like "Oh dear, another life wasted " or something similar, but I hold my tongue, usually.
The funny thing is , I resolved awhile ago not to be so considerate of their feelings, they do not consider mine, but the opportunity has not arisen yet to put them in their place.
I think I will do it in a fairly kindly way by saying something like "I have moved on now, as you know, and I am really not interested in that sort of thing "
In your position at present it is not as easy for you as for me, but before long you will be where I am, and able to say a little more.
Be assured that the emotions sort themselves out as time goes on, you will feel better.
As said so well above, it is not you who are in the wrong, even though they do not know it, it is them.