Posts by freespirit67

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Hi I'm new here - a bit about me

by Fishbulb in

well where do i start?

i am 34, male and gay.

when i was about 15 i was exposed to the witnesses teachings.

freespirit67

Im so sorry fishbulb for calling you lightbulb lolits actually 1:20am here in Scotland and I just got up through not being able to sleep with a bad cough.Still half sleeping

freespirit xxx

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Hi I'm new here - a bit about me

by Fishbulb in

well where do i start?

i am 34, male and gay.

when i was about 15 i was exposed to the witnesses teachings.

Hi lightbulb and welcome.Thanks for sharing your experiences.I can practically feel the strruggle you had with yourself through the years of being a JW.I can still feel the struggle you are having even though you are away from the society.I personally think it must take years to recover bit by bit from the effects of what we have all experienced being in the JW'S,I know i will.Keep being true to yourself lightbulb continue loving your partner and being loved and hopefully at some youpoint will find true inner peace,which I think we are all lookinf for.

lots of love freespirit a newbie too

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* Name a reason people wont make it through Armegeddon *

by FlyingHighNow in

jw
friends

let's start a list of reasons why you were told, or overheard people telling, won't make it through the big a day.

i'll start.. 1. they don't take showing up for cleaning the kingdom hall seriously and never show up.

i overheard a sour puss old elder say this to his wife after he just gave a scolding talk on it.

freespirit67

not attending all 5 meetings including the book study which is now being done away with or added on to the thursday meeting giving them a free night god im angry the way i was made to feel guilty if i missed itOh and going out on the ministry at least once at the weekend.Having any type of worldly friends,drinking too much alcohol,oral sex,not being part of the ministry school,needless to say i failed on all accounts he he

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hi newbie to this great place

by freespirit67 in

sorry this has turned out longer than i thought.anyway i lived the life of a single mother fell away from the organisation,and eventually met a (worldly) guy who is the most loving guy i have ever met,my best friend,lover and soulmate.i was disfellowshipped 4 months ago because we live with each other and plan to get married in september,unacceptable to the society hence my disfellowshipping.it has broke my mum and dads heart and im so so sorry for this,i love them so much,but no longer want or believe in the jw beliefs.

i still believe in god but dont know where im bound as regards my faith,i really do want to have something.

apart from my mum and dad and the shunning arrangement im so happy,the happiest i have ever been in years,and my 2 youngest ones are happy as well..my eldest daughter is 16 and planning on getting baptised in july which is tearing me apart,she is so like me,but is being brainwashed by a certain crowd of witnesses,need i say anymore...my eldest son who is 18 isnt in the truth and feels the same way i do... anyway thanks for this forum and hope to hear from likeminded friends soon.

freespirit67

Would just like to say a massive thankyou to everyone who replied.this is what it is all about,being accepted for who you are without having any judgement made against you.I think this forum is going to help me get through alot of my issues and its great to know im not alone.Thanks again.

lol freespirit xxxxxx

Thought I would put me and my partners photo on my profile,nothing to hide anymore

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New here

by Pinball in

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friends

thought i'd just take a few seconds to introduce myself and say hi.. i'm an exwitness, df, left in the 90s, well and truly over the issues, run my own businesses both online and offline, single, 40s, male.. looking forward to talking, sharing, discussing a variety of subjects with any/all of you.. busy right now doing seo work for one of my numerous websites, will get back to this in the next day or so, when i can find the time.. great to be here amongst others that grew up in the witnesses.

could be beneficial to share some knowledge.. see you around.. andy.

freespirit67

Hi Andie and welcome...Im new here as well,what a great site im addicted already

freespirit xxxx

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Bring the Light (has sound)

by Bring_the_Light in

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friends

'bring the light' by the smashing pumpkins' from zeitgeist(track 9).

shot down i stood.

withstood my neighborhood.

freespirit67

yeah like that did strike a chord...hey thanks for your comments on the experiences board cant believe the warm welcome...oh and by the way the guy i am marrying is 13 years younger than me loland i have just turned 41 so not nearly 42 lol still life in this old girl yet

freespirit xx

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For those without Mothers 2008

by Lady Lee in

jw
friends

mothers day can bring up many issues for some of us.

for some their mothers have passed away and the opportunity to say i love you in person is forever lost.

for others, our mothers are lost to the wts.

freespirit67

Dear mum,Im so sorry things have had to turn out this way but I cannot live the lie any longer. I had a happy upbringing in some ways but a very confused and angry one in another. Mum I love you so so much and I feel so hurt and angry that you choose to make yourself unhappy,I know you are because Natasha has told me how you cry at having lost a daughter to satans world,but mum you dont seem to understand you have lost me because of the society and thier rules.I am still here your only daughter and always will be.I am trying to respect your beliefs and descisions please respect mine.

All my love your daughter.XXXX

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hi newbie to this great place

by freespirit67 in

sorry this has turned out longer than i thought.anyway i lived the life of a single mother fell away from the organisation,and eventually met a (worldly) guy who is the most loving guy i have ever met,my best friend,lover and soulmate.i was disfellowshipped 4 months ago because we live with each other and plan to get married in september,unacceptable to the society hence my disfellowshipping.it has broke my mum and dads heart and im so so sorry for this,i love them so much,but no longer want or believe in the jw beliefs.

i still believe in god but dont know where im bound as regards my faith,i really do want to have something.

apart from my mum and dad and the shunning arrangement im so happy,the happiest i have ever been in years,and my 2 youngest ones are happy as well..my eldest daughter is 16 and planning on getting baptised in july which is tearing me apart,she is so like me,but is being brainwashed by a certain crowd of witnesses,need i say anymore...my eldest son who is 18 isnt in the truth and feels the same way i do... anyway thanks for this forum and hope to hear from likeminded friends soon.

freespirit67

will try and keep my story short lol i was brought up a JW since i was 2 (i am now 41) i had 2 elder brothers the eldest left the organisation when he was 15 joined the army at 17 and basically did his own thing. my other brother got baptised at 14 then disfellowshipped at 16 for smoking,he no longer wanted to be a JW. He married out the truth and had a little girl. My parents were still able to have contact because at that point the society hadnt changed its rules on having nothing to do with disfellowshipped family but when it did come out years later they then had to tell my bro,his wife and then 2 year old daughter they would no longer be having anything to do with them,at that time i was 14,it broke my heart,but i thought it has to be right my mum and dad and the society says so years went by my brother had a drink problem couldnt face not having contact so started attending meetings,after a year or so got reinstated,(i know it was all for the wrong reasons) He then fell away quietly but was secretly living the life as a person of the world (sorry for using that term I hate it)Inbetween this I was baptised at 16,went on to become a regular pioneer,married a witness boy at 19 had my first baby at 22 then went on to have 5 kids all together WOW I know,need I say more,the pressure of raising a family attending meetings,ministry,preperation,and being physically abused by my so called witness husband took its toll.My spirituality went to zero.My brother who had been baptised died at only 38,alot of it due to mental health problems affected by the societies expectations and my mum and dad finding out and it hurting them,I sincerely believe that played a large part in his death.I then turned to drink and drugs,I was 30.Then I fell pregnant and had a still birth 5months into my pregnancy,my beautiful baby boy Arran was born dead,oh how I greived.My marriage went from bad to worse and my husband eneded up having an affair with a sister in another congregation,18 years of marriage out of the window.He was disfellowshipped,but the sister wasnt oh how I hated the elders and that sister because of the way things were dealt with,she lied her whole way through it,her father was an elder as well.

Sorry this has turned out longer than I thought.Anyway I lived the life of a single mother fell away from the organisation,and eventually met a (WORLDLY) guy who is the most loving guy I have ever met,my best friend,lover and soulmate.I was disfellowshipped 4 months ago because we live with each other and plan to get married in September,unacceptable to the society hence my disfellowshipping.It has broke my mum and dads heart and Im so so sorry for this,I love them so much,but no longer want or believe in the JW beliefs. I still believe in God but dont know where Im bound as regards my faith,I really do want to have something. Apart from my mum and dad and the shunning arrangement Im so happy,the happiest I have ever been in years,and my 2 youngest ones are happy as well..My eldest daughter is 16 and planning on getting baptised in July which is tearing me apart,she is so like me,but is being brainwashed by a certain crowd of witnesses,need I say anymore...My eldest son who is 18 isnt in the Truth and feels the same way I do..

Anyway thanks for this forum and hope to hear from likeminded friends soon.

Thanks for reading.

love freespirit xxxx

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Not sure what to do - Not "in" and not "out"

by Alexia in

long story short: forgive my grammar, im in a hurry!.

i grew up as a jw by my mother who was baptized about two years before i was born.

my dad studied but was a severe (really severe) alcoholic and my older brother studied but was never really into it.

freespirit67

hi there,im so sorry to hear of your experiences it couldnt have been easy for you...my heart goes out to you and your mum but at the same time you really have a responsibility to think of your own sanity...your mother has made the choice that she still wants too be in the organisation (cant bring myself to say the TRUTH) you obviously dont through one reason or another,so just because you dont want to be a JW anymore doesent mean you dont love her as much...i would try sitting her down and having a real heart to heart and take it from there,you cant keep living a lie or it will evenually make you go insane...ive been there done it...so pllease for you and your partners and of course your mothers sake be true to yourself..

lots of hugs