the imposing lodge on whose polished parquet i now am standing offers me not mere views through floor-to-ceiling plate glass windows but expansive vistas.
formerly, from mullioned panes in my small and tilting cottage, i would gaze with unspoken delight upon the setting sun and my very good fortune.
i was happy to be alive amidst simple things and pleasures.
Thank you my friend.
Kindred spirits abound as we walk our lonely last mile.
Hoping grandchildren remember us with a smile.
We walk a lonely rocky path you see
It is time to pay the piper his fee
I am sailing on to a distant shore
I am opening life’s last door
only earth wind and sky last forever they say.
the grim reaper has a debt he wishes me to pay.
i fear not death, for he is not a proud entity.
Real Life is fast closing in on me.
Trouble ahead as far as the eye can see.
Will I see tommorow's bright dawn ?
Who will remember me when I am gone?
I have always lived life on terms all my own.
Facing three in the morning all alone.
I ponder the meaning of my wonderful life you see.
Just want to see my babies grow up at my knee.
Lord I want to step back from Death's slippery ledge.
It's no fun being the frightenened man on the edge.
only earth wind and sky last forever they say.
the grim reaper has a debt he wishes me to pay.
i fear not death, for he is not a proud entity.
I am hoping I can face the inevitable in the same manner my older brother faced his demise in his early 40's. He faced his death with a grace and streangth that left me feeling honored to be his brother. He set a fine example for me. I shall try to live up to his legacy .
only earth wind and sky last forever they say.
the grim reaper has a debt he wishes me to pay.
i fear not death, for he is not a proud entity.
I am just trying to run through some really tough emotions regarding my mortality. You see today I was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. I have not told a soul this, not even my wife or children. I think I want to wait till after the holidays so as not to ruin Christmas for them. I had to vent however, so I figured that I would on this anonymous forum.
only earth wind and sky last forever they say.
the grim reaper has a debt he wishes me to pay.
i fear not death, for he is not a proud entity.
Only earth wind and sky last forever they say.
The grim reaper has a debt he wishes me to pay.
I fear not death, for he is not a proud entity.
Wishing I had more time before passing into eternity
Soon I must travel on one last great adventure
So little time left for loved ones to nurture
Give me the strength to face the unknown in an honorable manner
Let no man say that I surrendered, and waved the white banner
Earth, wind, and sky are not the only things that last forever
My love for my dear ones will never pass, no not ever
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i'm admitting to be very pissed off.....and bitter.
i'm sick of having no job security (i know its relative), but mostly because i did not go to college....... has anyone gone back to school post 40?
how was the experience?
I finished my Phd When I was 42
i was disfellowshipped when i was 21 (raised as a witness).
my mother who is now 80 and a diehard witness always hoped that i would return.
she is concerned that she will soon pass away and the arrangements.
My mother is not terminal, though she is ill. She wants assurances that when that fateful day arrives (as it must for all living beings)that the kingdom hall is where her services will be conducted. I am sorry if any of you got the impression that her death was imminent . I continue to struggle between healing myself and providing palliative support for my mother.
any active or inactive jw from massachusetts.
Raised here in Massachusetts just over the border in CT. now.
i was disfellowshipped when i was 21 (raised as a witness).
my mother who is now 80 and a diehard witness always hoped that i would return.
she is concerned that she will soon pass away and the arrangements.
Thank you all for your kind words. Intellectually I am ok, emotionally not so much.
reflections in the night.
the night is long i reflect on days gone by.
did i succeed or was life just a tragic lie.
it was 4 or 5 am when i wrote it 6 when i finally posted
