Posts by Jesika

59

I SEE A BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!! (rayzorblade)!!!!!!!!!!!

by Jesika in

jw
friends

rayzorblade

post 2845 of 2845. from 12-jan-03.

birthday!.

Jesika

LOL @ Smack........................FROLLICKING is not in my vocabulary............I said..........F**KING..........damn censors!!! LOL

Love ya Ray.........hope you have a beer on me or Iz2cool buys you one for me!!!!!

Jes

8

Poetry :(

by NEWWORLDSLACKER in

jw
friends

do any of you find that writing helps you cope ?

but i think mine suck..... .

share yours if your comfortable with doing so , i would love to read them.. but here goes one o mine ....sorry in advance :.

Jesika

This is one I wrote more recently...................entitled........I am only a guest...........

Look through my eyes See what i see Then you can judge me Feel what I feel Dreams are reality Touch it...it is real Push me I dare you Evil within me I will cherish you All I ever wanted Was to be me Freedom...is flaunted Walk the line you say Watch me now There will be a day You eat your words Running scared You cowards Would you like to tumble With me...honestly As I watch you stumble You are in my domain Power in which You will forever remain Can you not see The source that drives The person... I like to be It is dark and enticing You love it and me Strikes you like lightening You want a thrill Then my soul I give For you it is to kill Try me if you will I will survive it i promise I can haunt you still Look in my eyes What do you see A sea of lies Is that what you are From the truth You are so far Handle me if you dare Is it too hard to do You cant possibly care I am who I want to be The only way I am Is to be the true ME A river I do cry But only within I do honestly try To behave But in this life I am a slave I beg of you Dont feel for me For it will hurt you too I live in pain Or I do not feel Nothing from you I gain Only a simple request That in your life I am only a guest Hope you liked it...........sad.....I know, but that is the only time I am inspired........... I haven't written anything in a long time........but we all have our bad days. PM me if you wish and we can share more poems. Love, Jes

8

Poetry :(

by NEWWORLDSLACKER in

jw
friends

do any of you find that writing helps you cope ?

but i think mine suck..... .

share yours if your comfortable with doing so , i would love to read them.. but here goes one o mine ....sorry in advance :.

Jesika

I find writing helps ALOT............at least for me.......................I wrote this when I was 13yrs old.......I am 27 now and I posted it a while back.....but since you asked to read some of ours I will repost it for you.........hope you like it as much I as I liked yours.............. Goodbye Cruel World........................ As I look upon the water Walk upon the edge, and think How they would feel to loose their daughter They wouldn't care Is it a relief But do I dare As the waves crash against my face Do I regret it, to them No matter what I am a disrase Why ask me to be a fake I am tired of the mask You see me as a mistake I am sinking and hurting Cant you see The real self is me being Tourtured beyond control Yet you can not see That's a place that you hold You are the one that is killing me The hurt I feel is from what you do But you refuse to see I have called out to you What have I done What can't I do To make the pain gone I am sinking and I cant see I can't feel anymore Do you miss me I have been lost And now been found Is it worth the cost Have I got your attention I needed so bad Your undieing affection Too much to ask I see And now I am down Inside the unforgiving sea Can you hear my voice Can you plainly see You had a vital choice To love me the way I truely am Or to loose me today Are your eyes now open Have you lost your hopes and dreams Now.....they are chosen I cant be who you want me to be I am not that person anymore I just want you to love me The true person I want to be Not the one you wanted But the one who you see I am not here anymore I left this world So the universe I can sore Good bye cruel world Jes...........................I only shared this cause I found this once again.......in my memory.............and I just felt like sharing..............if you dont like it.....that is ok.......I just felt like writing it down again......thank you. http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/9/57158/1.ashx

59

I SEE A BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!! (rayzorblade)!!!!!!!!!!!

by Jesika in

jw
friends

rayzorblade

post 2845 of 2845. from 12-jan-03.

birthday!.

Jesika

Just glad to be a part of it honey!!!!!!!!!! Glad I didn't miss it....haven't been online in a while..........but............

Happy F**king BIRTHDAY!!!!

LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

46

What Sort Of Brit Would you Be? Quiz.

by Englishman in

jw
friends

i'm like mr. bean!.

http://darrenlondon.tripod.com/britquiz1.htm.

englishman.

Jesika

I am 35% British, just like
Madonna
Just as happy in LA or London. Aren't the narrow roads in the UK quaint

That's bad huh? LOL

59

I SEE A BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!! (rayzorblade)!!!!!!!!!!!

by Jesika in

jw
friends

rayzorblade

post 2845 of 2845. from 12-jan-03.

birthday!.

Jesika

RAYZORBLADE

Post 2845 of 2845
from 12-Jan-03

41 y
Birthday!

I saw this on another thread...................but the BIRTHDAY PART CAUGHT MY EYE!!!!!!!!!!!

Hope I am not wrong on this........but looks to me that it is RAY'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SOOOOOOOOOOO..............If I am not mistaken...............

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOVE YA BRO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jes

10

Driving thru my past tonite..literally..

by LyinEyes in

jw
friends

tonite , i was afraid of the feelings i might have passing thru the area where my mom and dad grew up , where all of my family still lives, and where my mom is buried.. my son, jake had a game in natchitoches and we had to go right thru the area to get there.

i decided at the last moment to stop my grandfathers place.

when he died it went to my mom, but since she was dead before him, it goes to my sister and i. .