Essie,
There are six million JW's out there, and any one of them at any time could use a hand to get out from under the mind control. This board and many on it help tremendously, you included.
That wonderment of when to let go and move on, but continuing on, may be motivated by that fact. So it is a positive act whether you see it that way or not, I see it that way every time I read a thought provoking post, or even a funny one and I am amused for a moment. Yes sadly, the WT will continue on trying to control as many people as possible in the name of the GB god. And even milk the terrorist events to keep existing members and recruit new ones. Only one who has been in the organization can know the hold they have on people and recognize the defensive brick walls the put up whenever one challenges their beliefs.
I've not been out that long, one year, after twenty seven years in, but was not raised a JW so I have some recollection of what it was like out there. If not for a few close friends still in and trying to slowly get out, I might be able to never look back. But the subject will always come up and if I can persuade someone how controlling and evil the WT can be I will.
HCM