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  Craziest thing you've ever been "counseled" for????

  by superman in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i know that this has been a popular post in the past.

  but after my last post, it got me thinking.

  i used to always use those stupid field service report slips as scratch paper.

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  amama2six

  Mary...yeah they're disgusting. The worst part is they succeeded in making me feel guilty about it. I beat myself up for awhile about what I could have done different. Oh, and that one wasn't a rape, thankfully. "Just" inappropriate touching...which in my mind was far easier to deal with than what had happened when I was in the foster home years before. So I eventually let it go and got on with my life.

  DJ thank you...from what I'm reading here there are a LOT of stupid/inappropriate counseling sessions that have occurred (and I'm sure continue to). I can't believe simply giving a co-worker a ride home would invoke a counseling session! How dare you help someone who's not a JW... It's a lot easier to get over what I went through knowing I'm not the only one who's been given counsel that should have never been given.

  I liken my view of the Elders to my view of my father. When I was a kid I thought my Dad knew everything and was PERFECT...never did anything wrong. Then as I grew up I began to realize he DIDN'T know everything and he was FAR from perfect! Same thing with the Elders. I used to think they knew all and never made mistakes...now I know they don't know sh*t and screw up all the time. It's comforting...
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  Poetry Heals

  by amama2six in

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  2. child-abuse

  for some, at least, myself being one.. i went through a really rough period at about 14 years old and had two poems come to me out of nowhere...i literally started writing and minutes later had a finished product.

  one i can post here but the other i fear may be too graphic for the forum (as it describes an actual experience).

  i'd be happy to send it to anyone who wants to read it, though, just shoot me a pm!.

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  Thank you Chris! I didn't really understand the depth of what it meant when I actually wrote it, as previously mentioned the words flowed out onto the paper like they were pouring from somewhere in my subconcious. Now when I look at it I see the significance it had when coupled with the emotions I was experiencing at the time.

  I've had writers block for awile now but really want to start writing again...not only poetry but short stories and eventually a novel. I think my biggest problem is sorting my thoughts when I usually have kids running around. Then by the time they go to sleep I'm too tired to try writing...lol.

  What kind of short stories do you write? Have you ever tried posting on www.gather.com? It's a pretty cool site and lots of people post short stories on there...as your popularity grows you get points toward gift cards for certain businesses (Borders Books, Home Depot, etc.). Get enough points in one month and you can switch over to the cash option instead. I've gotten a 25 dollar Home Depot gift card from posting on there (have enough points for another 10 dollar card as well) but haven't been on much recently.

  ~April
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  Poetry Heals

  by amama2six in

  1. watchtower
  2. child-abuse

  for some, at least, myself being one.. i went through a really rough period at about 14 years old and had two poems come to me out of nowhere...i literally started writing and minutes later had a finished product.

  one i can post here but the other i fear may be too graphic for the forum (as it describes an actual experience).

  i'd be happy to send it to anyone who wants to read it, though, just shoot me a pm!.

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  amama2six

  For some, at least, myself being one.

  I went through a really rough period at about 14 years old and had two poems come to me out of nowhere...I literally started writing and minutes later had a finished product. One I can post here but the other I fear may be too graphic for the forum (as it describes an actual experience). I'd be happy to send it to anyone who wants to read it, though, just shoot me a PM!

  Now keep in mind I was only 14 when I wrote this...but I still think it came out pretty good. I made it into a poetry.com book with it some years ago!

  "The Storm is Rolling On"

  The storm is rolling on

  in the bitter cold outside.

  Raindrops turn to ice

  from tears that she has cried.

  The lightning flashes, sudden,

  for a moment dark turns bright.

  Then thunder breaks the silence

  as her scream rips through the night.

  The wind blows cold and fierce

  across the barren land.

  Trees are bent and twisted

  with the trembling of her hands.

  The elements, relentless,

  show no sign of giving in.

  The storm is rolling on

  through the memories that have been.

  I'd love to see some work from other people here who have used it to work through their child abuse experiences so if you feel comfortable share it here or PM me if you'd like! ((((HUGS)))) ~April
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  Craziest thing you've ever been "counseled" for????

  by superman in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i know that this has been a popular post in the past.

  but after my last post, it got me thinking.

  i used to always use those stupid field service report slips as scratch paper.

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  amama2six

  Your part? Oh yea here are some examples.
  
  Like my part in getting ripped of by a dishonest RE. My part in getting my car stolen. My part in getting mugged in Vegas. My part in the real estate collapse.
  
  How can a 13 year old have a part in a molestation victimization? Bllllaaaaaaarf

  Oh, but I didn't scream or fight. Instead, I froze in fear. Also, I didn't tell anyone about it for a year. Unfortunately, due to my previous history of being abused (ages 1-4 1/2 in a foster home with a pedophile before moving back in with my father) my brain was used to blocking memories like that out and I literally didn't remember what happened until it hit me like a brick in the middle of class at school one day. That was fun.

  I'm actually surprised they didn't DF me right then and there...I guess the "brothers" were feeling generous and simply gave me some counsel. The offender was removed from elder status and reproved. He was encouraged to turn himself in to the authorities (which he did) but I was encouraged not to press charges, so I didn't. He got some therapy, as did I for a very short time, then my family was encouraged to change congregations and forget all about it.

  That was a real turning point in my life...the "beginning of the end", so to speak. But I think this is supposed to be a light-hearted thread, so I won't go there.
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  Craziest thing you've ever been "counseled" for????

  by superman in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i know that this has been a popular post in the past.

  but after my last post, it got me thinking.

  i used to always use those stupid field service report slips as scratch paper.

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  amama2six

  I was counseled for my "part" in being sexually molested at 13 by a 34 year old man. Apparently since I was baptized at 9 I was partly responsible for not handling the situation correctly. Thanks f**kers! (Sorry...couldn't resist saying that last part.)
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  Funny JW memories/stories

  by superman in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  since most of my memories of being a jw, are terrible(and i do mean most of them).

  i figured i share one funny one.

  one time back when they first started the new number 2 talk arrangement (switched to only doing bible readings, and not having to actually write a talk), i got a talk slip but lost it.a few weeks later i didn't realize i had a talk only until i got to the thursday night meeting, and the school overseer came up to ask me, "are you all set for your talk tonight"?

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  I'm trying here, but I'm coming up empty. I wish I had something to add...your story is great, though!
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  A puzzle to start the day!!

  by PopeOfEruke in

  1. social
  2. entertainment

  a great puzzle!

  able to be enjoyed by straights and gays alike!.

  enjoy!

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  amama2six

  In my case he's a non-working bum who lives with his parents and hasn't paid child support in three years.
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  Oh my god, just oh my god

  by B_Deserter in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  okay, something weird just happened, but now i have not one, but four possible dates, with four different ladies in the near future.

  is it really this simple?

  all i'm doing is being honest and funny.

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  amama2six

  

  Congrats!!!
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  My Wife's In The Hospital

  by Yizuman in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  hello folks, .

  long time, no post .

  so we checked in the next day and got her in a room.

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  amama2six

  I'm so glad your wife is doing well! Prayers definitely going your way...(((Hugs))) ~April
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  Teacher sexually assulted me...........what do you think

  by Jesika in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  in your opinon......................should i go through with it..................................(hi simon.....long time).

  on august 4th of 2008 at approximately 8:00-8:10am i was coming from the front office after receiving a green sheet for being absent on thursday, july 31st 2008. i was passing the women's restroom on my way back to class, when i saw steve walking the barren hallways.

  he didn't notice me since i was walking far behind him.

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  amama2six

  Exactly David...and for all we know he could ALREADY have reports in his "file"...this could be the one that finally gets him properly dealt with!