Thanks for the nice welcome. This is incredibly hard for me, as I suspect many of you know from your own experience. Here goes:
I am still active but mentally and emotionally estranged since discovering the gross misuse of quotations in the Creation book. That was the worst shock of my life, and I discovered it on my own (rather than someone telling me, which I would have automatically disbelieved). I can honestly say that my heart was broken. I had implicit trust in the Borg and it never remotely ocurred to me that they would be dishonest in any shape or form, especially over something as paramount as the origin of life.
After being devestated, I got angry--at myself, for never educating myself on the whole evolution/creation thing. Everything I knew (or thought I knew) about the matter was based on what the Soc. had printed. So, I got busy and started reading--and wow! The light went on. I found the whole subject fascinating and, at the same time, I realized how totally out in left field virtually everything the Soc. has printed on the whole matter is. Since they weren't honest about evolution, were they honest about the history and infallability of the Bible?
That was the next thing I researched, and discovered this website around that time and Leolaia's amazing scholarship (L., you are my hero) I read Friedman's Who Wrote the bible, as well as a pile of others. But this realization of having been misled, and having my faith in the Bible um..interrupted--no, diluted, let's see--how about, trashed? Well, at any rate, it plunged me into something of a depression and I ended up in counselling and on antidepressants--which actually helped me feel a whole lot better, both being able to voice my anxiety and sorrow and getting my mood picked up, chemically or otherwise. I'm also working out like crazy which really helps too.
Okay, where am I now? I haven't told anybody because I'm still scared. I admit it. That is, except for my husband. I'm married to a wonderful guy who is strong in the "truth" and who is in major denial. He's too smart not to understand what I've been sharing with him but scared stiff of where it will take him, like I am. I'm still going to some meetings, not going out in svc--my conscience just won't let me (sidepoint--nobody's said boo to me about this. Isn't that odd?) How can I tell someone the end is coming "very soon" when I've read about the '75 fiasco and seen the "generation that won't pass away" pass away right before my eyes? How can I represent the Bible as being inerrant and infallible?
I can't.