Good series of questions...I'll do my best!
1. What drives me now... I have a few things. First and foremost, my children. I want to be a person the can be proud of. I want them to see they don't have to fit into someone's mold of who they should be. I want them to be independent, thriving, and happy. I work to achieve that. Secondly, my wonderful man. Yes, he knows he comes second lol. But he is my perfect match in every way. Just opposite enough to keep things interesting, but similar enough to have a lot in common...I strive to be his rock, as he is mine. Lastly, my job. I enjoy it, and actually wish I worked MORE (I will be, once I move).
2. I don't consider myself an "avid" poster. I post when a topic interests me or when I see someone who is going through something similar to what I did needs a kind word or I feel maybe sharing some of my situation might help them to feel they are not alone. I most definitely have a life outside of the internet lol. A side note about Blondie's Comments You Will Not Hear at the Watchtower Study: This is VERY HELPFUL to a lot of people. It shows the mind control tactics, the mental gymnastics, the bait & switch, the strawman arguments, and the general BS that the Society prints. If someone is at a meeting on a Sunday and happens on this site the day before or after, and the current Watchtower is being discussed, I can't help but think it would plant some seeds in their mind after reading Blondie's hard work. It's in an effort to help others, members, lurkers, or otherwise.
3. I refer to myself as an Agnostic Atheist. I cannot prove there isn't a power that created us. If there is, I don't believe it is intelligent, all-knowing, or even remotely interested in humankind. But, I'm leaning toward "No", unless otherwise proven. I do believe in the power of focused meditation (some will call it prayer, but I don't), I do believe in an "afterlife" of sorts, but I believe it will be scientifically explained at some point. As to WHY I question the existence of a creator and am leaning toward no? Because I haven't been given ANY proof to the contrary. The Bible is not proof, imo. A fiction novel can claim it is fact, but that doesn't make it so. The Bible claims itself is inspired...I'd ask it the same question I'd ask anyone... "Why should I believe YOU?"