Posts by wantstoleave

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Im new....posting hesitantly :)

by wantstoleave in

hi everyone...i have a confession to make, i actually joined 5mths ago, but never came back to the site.

ive had doubt for a few years now.. my parents came into the truth when i was a toddler.

no other family members are witnesses.

wantstoleave

Hi Mickey...yeh, Im the physically in, mentally out one too. Although, in about 6mths Ive only been to about 2 meetings and 1 day of the convention. I guess Im part mentally in though. Not made up my mind totally. But looking for answers :) So, you attend ALL meetings then? Go witnessing?

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Help - am I on the fence??

by wantstoleave in

jw
friends

please bear with me, newbie here :).

i have had doubts for a few years now.

i was raised in the truth, baptised at 16, married at 24...the usual stuff.

wantstoleave

Thanks Baba ((hugs))....I will :)

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"One of" Jehovah's Witnesses

by NeonMadman in

any thoughts on that particular phrasing?

personally, i think the wts uses it as another form of mind control.

by calling the individual "one of jehovah's witnesses," it lends a generic feel to the wording.

wantstoleave

Baba....ooo please explain!! Juicy! So, is this site solely for those wishing to or who have left? Or for witnesses too? Do you mean that the songwriters you talk about are no longer witnesses?

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Any Aussies about?

by OlderTom in

how about dropping a line on the main board or e-mailing me.

we are organising another bbq and would like to invite you along.. oldertom.

pretty soon we'll have to organise warwick farm race cource for our assemblies.

wantstoleave

Hey! Im in Adelaide :) Are you male or female? Lol...

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How long have you been df'd or da'd?

by asilentone in

i have never been df'd or da'd, but if they catch me, i will say oh well.

i should have been df'd long time ago.

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wantstoleave

Maybe Im a bit 'spiritually sick' lol.....but, is you disassociate yourself, is it the same as Df? I mean, does your family have to shun you?

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Im new....posting hesitantly :)

by wantstoleave in

hi everyone...i have a confession to make, i actually joined 5mths ago, but never came back to the site.

ive had doubt for a few years now.. my parents came into the truth when i was a toddler.

no other family members are witnesses.

wantstoleave

Thankyou everyone :) (I didnt get email notification of your replies....how can I arrange that?)

Yes, it feels like a BIG guilt trip. My dad says that when I feel guilty, its good because my conscience is working. I sometimes regret getting baptised...because if I wasnt baptised, I could leave and my family could still associate with me. But because I was SO afraid of being 'left on the shelf' and being unmarried (another topic in itself!), I rushed to get baptised and to please my parents. I think I DO regret that.

Mybrother is baptised, but hasnt associated for about 5yrs. He lives with his fiance. We all still visit him but I can sense he's not 100% happy. My parents dont push him to come back, but I think my brother feels guilt being around us. He says he believes its the truth, but cant live in it.

It can be a very lonely upbringing being in the truth if you arent accepted by the popular witness young ones. Then at school you're not allowed to associate with 'worldly' ones. Then you have noone. So in my case, when the first man comes along and takes an interest in you, you hold on tight. Only years down the track do you realise that he's not the right person for you and that you were just scared of being alone. Im sure many of you who have been in the truth will know the pressure to get married while young.

Honesty, what do you mean that I wont be scripturally free? I mean, I hope in time I will be...lol. But, in the near future, I dont know. I think just to spite me he'd not sleep with anyone. He is controlling and manipulative in a sly kind of way. Nevertheless, I am divorcing him. Scripturally or not. I havent told the elders that yet. Oops, my bad...LOL!

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Help - am I on the fence??

by wantstoleave in

jw
friends

please bear with me, newbie here :).

i have had doubts for a few years now.

i was raised in the truth, baptised at 16, married at 24...the usual stuff.

wantstoleave

Please bear with me, newbie here :)

I have had doubts for a few years now. I was raised in the truth, baptised at 16, married at 24...the usual stuff. My marriage was quite hellish to be honest, and then the unthinkable happened, my husband left me with 2 children over a year ago now. As far as the elders tell me, he still attends meetings etc - in another country.

Now, besides it being a horrid year or so, Ive been fighting inner turmoil regards the truth. When husband left, the elders and cong were so helpful and nice. I appreciate all they did to help me. However, I have not been regular at meetings for months now, and have had no shepherding calls. Ive been out witnessing twice in a year. My parents and sister are baptised witnesses. My brother is inactive and living with his fiance.

This is my dilemma and where I wonder how on the fence I am. I doubt the truth is the truth sometimes. Sometimes I wonder if theres a god, HOW could there be? But then how did the earth come about? Being a JW gives us logical explanation for creation etc. BUT, how can every other religion be wrong? How come WE have the truth? Why JW's? And then, IF the end does come, and my jerk off husband makes it through....I dont want him getting our kids, because he's not bothered to contact us at all in over a year. So if I were to die at armageddon, if it came, I wouldnt want my kids going to him. Lol....sound silly? Sorry. I just worry.

Then even if I leave the truth, my parents and sister wont be able to talk to me, yet they are SO much a part of my life. I guess the only thing keeping me 'in' at the moment is 1 - not losing my family and 2 - not letting my ex have the upper hand! If I leave, he can play the 'she isnt a witness' card.

Help please! I need to sort these thoughts out :( And if I talk to my parents about it, they'll only fret. They have lost one child to the world already and dont want to lose another....

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