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  Im new....posting hesitantly :)

  by wantstoleave in

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  hi everyone...i have a confession to make, i actually joined 5mths ago, but never came back to the site.

  ive had doubt for a few years now.. my parents came into the truth when i was a toddler.

  no other family members are witnesses.

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  wantstoleave

  Thanks Lisa :)

  Ive kept my doubts to myself for years now. But am tired of living with questions, with doubt. Yet Ive never been 'worldly'...so dont know how to act 'normal'....lol. It all feels to foreign. I cant even bring myself to swear...lol.
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  Any Aussies about?

  by OlderTom in

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  how about dropping a line on the main board or e-mailing me.

  we are organising another bbq and would like to invite you along.. oldertom.

  pretty soon we'll have to organise warwick farm race cource for our assemblies.

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  wantstoleave

  Nice to meet you :) I have 2 children....single parent. Husband up and left over a year ago without warning. He's in another country now, and magically attending meetings. (He never did while married to me)...Go figure....
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  Im new....posting hesitantly :)

  by wantstoleave in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  hi everyone...i have a confession to make, i actually joined 5mths ago, but never came back to the site.

  ive had doubt for a few years now.. my parents came into the truth when i was a toddler.

  no other family members are witnesses.

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  wantstoleave

  Oh yes, definitely...I could write a book on the emotional abuse and neglect he subjected me to :(
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  DNCall Unmasked - Part 3 of 5

  by DNCall in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  startfragment.

  by the 1990s it became necessary for me to seek work outside of music.

  barbara, who had to help support our family in the mid-1980s, was working as a legal secretary and suggested i consider doing the same.

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  wantstoleave

  Wow!!! Thankyou for sharing your story!!! My family are facing a similar prospect when my brother marries his fiance next year. Though he isnt Df...if he was, I wonder what my parents would do? I would stand by my brother no doubt...he is my flesh and blood. And if I got kicked out for it, so be it. I truly appreciate your opening up :)
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  "One of" Jehovah's Witnesses

  by NeonMadman in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  any thoughts on that particular phrasing?

  personally, i think the wts uses it as another form of mind control.

  by calling the individual "one of jehovah's witnesses," it lends a generic feel to the wording.

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  wantstoleave

  Dont worry, Im not going to indoctrinate anyone...lol. Ive come here myself because I doubt. Im looking for support more than anything, to help me through my thinking. Ill also never push my thinking on anyone else. Im not like that. Probably why I havent been on service in a year and before that, 3yrs. I look forward to spending more time here :)
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  Im new....posting hesitantly :)

  by wantstoleave in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  hi everyone...i have a confession to make, i actually joined 5mths ago, but never came back to the site.

  ive had doubt for a few years now.. my parents came into the truth when i was a toddler.

  no other family members are witnesses.

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  wantstoleave

  Wow good on you! My husband and I had started smoking at the time (2007), and he was all for not being a witness. Then when I got the guilts and said we shouldnt smoke anymore, he got angry...but gave it up too. I was still toying with the idea of not being a witness anymore, but guess he backtracked and started telling me that I was stupid for doubting. Cut a long story short, turned out he'd been planning to leave me for a year before he actually did, and so I havent heard from him since. And Im still left with doubts..lol.
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  Help - am I on the fence??

  by wantstoleave in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  please bear with me, newbie here :).

  i have had doubts for a few years now.

  i was raised in the truth, baptised at 16, married at 24...the usual stuff.

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  wantstoleave

  Hi Alan...yeh, sorry about 'the truth' bit....you'll have to excuse me...its ingrained after almost 30yrs of being in 'it'.

  Everytime I go to research, I get 'the guilts'. I do sense that my parents think they're slowly losing me though. But today I probably shocked them by going to a meeting. Hadnt been in months! So they probably think Im back on track again. If only they knew...
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  How long have you been df'd or da'd?

  by asilentone in

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  2. experiences

  i have never been df'd or da'd, but if they catch me, i will say oh well.

  i should have been df'd long time ago.

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  wantstoleave

  I think the longer you are inactive, the more inclined the elders are to 'let you go' and not pursue you for Df etc. Thats what happens in my area anyway. If you drift away, they dont bother with you. They may for the first 6mths or so...but after that, they dont bother. Ive been inactive for SO many years, but have never gone worldly. I mean, Ive tried smoking (tut tut I know) but have done nothing else. Wanted to celebrate my kids birthdays and xmas, but havent done it. Talked to my then husband about it, and he just told me I was being stupid. Spoke to my mum about how I was feeling, she told me not to do it or Id be Df and she'd never be able to speak to me again. She was crying. I felt terrible :( So, havent done anything 'bad' yet.

  Doesnt help that my parents are teaching my kids about the truth. At home, I find it really hard to talk about anything witness related to the kids. Yet I do it because Grandma and Grandpa are doing it with them when Im at work. In a sense, I think the truth IS the truth...it makes sense on so many levels. BUT it also doesnt make sense on many levels...lol. I hope that makes sense!
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  Im new....posting hesitantly :)

  by wantstoleave in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  hi everyone...i have a confession to make, i actually joined 5mths ago, but never came back to the site.

  ive had doubt for a few years now.. my parents came into the truth when i was a toddler.

  no other family members are witnesses.

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  wantstoleave

  Hi Mickey...yeh, Im the physically in, mentally out one too. Although, in about 6mths Ive only been to about 2 meetings and 1 day of the convention. I guess Im part mentally in though. Not made up my mind totally. But looking for answers :) So, you attend ALL meetings then? Go witnessing?
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  Help - am I on the fence??

  by wantstoleave in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  please bear with me, newbie here :).

  i have had doubts for a few years now.

  i was raised in the truth, baptised at 16, married at 24...the usual stuff.

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  wantstoleave

  Thanks Baba ((hugs))....I will :)