its called being part of the rat race, but then you know that as we all do. whats it all about sometimes we all wonder why we bother, like the winos you speak of, drinks not the problem just as drugs are not the problem for the junkie, they need an excuse to drop out, maybe there a lot braver than you and me (i'm not advocating you become a drunk or junkie by the way).
life can be very dull in this modern world, your nose stuck to the grind stone 9 to 5, we have our down times but we come back up cos wev'e got to pay the bills look after the kids.
but yeah sometimes because of the responseabilities and the shit that happens you think
"if i was dead would i really be missing that much, cos my life is pretty dull"
hang in there thats what were all doing, this maybe the only life we all have.