I've often thought about the question of whether there is a god, and many times, I've gotten rather worked up about it.
I was raised in a rather non-religious family, but attended a very religious Christian school. I saw much love in my family, but little love in this ultra-right wing school. I decided I wanted nothing to do with their brand of 'love'.
While I was attending secondary school, I was told the story about the three blind men and the horse, and it helped me to develop my thoughts on good. Each blind man thought a part of the horse was god, but didn't really understand the complete picture.
That's how I picture any god that there might be. Humans are human, by nature, and cannot understand what 'god' would really be. We like to judge, we like to condemn, we like to fight and kill, therefore we project oursevles onto any god that there might be. We want him in our image . . . and we excuse this by saying that we are in his image.
The lives we are living are wonderful, even if we are depressed. While it might not always seem that way, existing is much better than not existing. And for this reason, life is a gift.
Is there a god? I believe that there is something that had to start creation of the universe. While I believe evolution is clearly disputable, I believe there is too much evidence for an evolutionary take on development. However, evolution and the big bang don't describe where it all comes from, and they never will. Was it god? Was it nature? It doesn't matter. It was something.
Does god care for us individually? Yes, he has given us each life as individuals, and whether he follows closely or allows us simply to live, he has already been kind to us.
I don't think god would ever come and judge us for not worshipping him. Would you kill a dog because he disobeys without real thought? Probably. But you are human. If you were perfect, had the chance to train the dog perfectly but didn't, and then had a puppy, would you kill the puppy because the dog was bad?
Remember, there must be something out there. Life came from somewhere. God need not be angry or human. Develop your own thoughts, develop your own feelings. If you believe in the god of the Bible, great. I believe that the Bible mirrors what god could be like. Once again, it's blind and only grabbing a part and projecting humanity, but there are good parts of the Bible and Christianity.
A little lengthy, but it was fun to write.