I really can relate to you Mrs Jones.
I've struggled with the whole making friends thing as well. I mean I have no problem making friends, my problem is giving time to them in order to make the friendship grow. I'll reach out and go on a lunch date or maybe a family BBQ with them and have a great time but when they call me the next day or the next week to do something else I feel overwhelmed and find anything as an excuse not to. I think the problem is definitely me and maybe it's because my whole married life I have been perfectly happy just spending time with my husband and kids, we do everything together. I'm afraid to let other in, or give others our time..even though the teens don't want all that family time anymore..LOL.