Welcome Belly. I second all the good advice given so far. Do your best to start forging relationships with nonJWs now so you have a support system. In adition to the one you'll find here, of course.
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Hello id like to intruduce myself
by Belly inive been lurking this site for quite a while but for some reason never could muster up the courage to post.. let me give a little background on my self.. i am 18 and male an still living with my parents.
i was baptised at 15 basically against my will (by cracking under the pressure) but only truly broke out of the drone like mindswhen i was 17. since then its been totall choas in my life all of it stemming from the orginization of course.
my parents are the defenition of brainwashed wittnesses, my father even belives he is anointed.. after i got baptised i suffered from intense deppression and with a little soul searching, after a year i realized that i need some time for my self.
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Dubby Custard
by LIftsong inis it the same for everyone who is an ex witness?
do we all go to bed every night of our lives detached for the human experience at a level the vast majority take for granted and enjoy everyday?
i sometimes think my inability to love was switched off at such a young age i am incapable of letting anyone else in.
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bluecanary
How long were you in and how long have you been out, Liftsong? It's possible to find other things to fill the void. Some choose another religion. Some go back to school. Some focus on forging new relationships. Some pursue volunteer work. I've been dabbling in all four.
Give it a little time and explore your options. Find a way to express your creativity. You may be detached from the human experience right now, but you can become reattached.
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Why were you baptized?
by bluecanary ininspired by another thread.. i was baptized at 12 years old.
i had a cousin, two years older than me, who was prettier, more outgoing and more popular in the hall than i was.
i couldn't beat her at any of that stuff, but i figured i could be a better jw than she was.
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"Hmmm, could Wolverine really beat Juggernaut by himself??? I suppose it would depend on what material Juggernaut's suit is made out of. Jeez, what if Wolverine had to fight Magneto by himself??? He'd be powerless... This greatly concerns me. I should get baptized."
Normally, when I type LOL I don't mean that I literally laughed "out loud." This time I do.
I felt extremely guilty because I couldn't quit masturbating. I was too embarrassed to talk about it with anyone. I just kept it inside.
PrimateDave, you have a retractable penis?
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Have you ever felt
by John Doe inyour blood boiling just below the surface, and you know you could go off on someone for any little thing?
in other words, anger with no object?
i feel that way today, and am unsure why..
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About once a month.
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KH Games
by cantleave ineven though my attandance at meetings is lessening, i still have to attend so as not to lose my income, friends and family.
i've started playing games to make the meetings go faster, for example, i have started annoying the hall servant by making silly requests such as asking him to turn the aircon on, then 10minutes later saying things like , "thanks for that but it looks like sister elderly is getting cold - she has just put her jumper on".
i also look for brothers and sisters who haven't got one or the books or the okm and make a real meal at getting one to them (its amazing how much noise you can make fumbling around the literature cupboard).. i am running out of ideas, can anyone else suggest something to to take the dullness out of the meetings.
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bluecanary
Bring a notebook, pretend to be taking notes and work on a novel. Make the characters based loosely on the people around you. Perhaps a post-apocalyptic, zombie GB survival story?
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The story of SD-7
by sd-7 inwho i am is inconsequential.
it's safe to say, however, that i am between a rock and a hard place.
or perhaps...a watchtower and a hard place, more accurately.. i was raised a jw--mom got baptized same day i turned 4 (in 1986), alleged that 'satan got to' me because i wanted to do fun stuff on my birthday rather than go to the convention to see her get baptized.
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bluecanary
Hi sd-7, I'll be your friend. We already have some things in common. We're the same age and we were baptized in the same year. Bonafide is working as a double agent, too, so I'm sure you guys can relate to each other. Welcome to the board.
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I saw JWs yesterday...
by Jim_TX innot too surprising, since it was sunday.. it started early though... at the local restaurant/coffee shop where i go on the weekends.
i usually sit at the counter, and drink coffee and look over my trade journals and scribble notes on my latest projects.. while there, a couple came in and sat at the counter.
i know that they are jws (in the past, they used to bring in their 'text' and read it there), and know that they must have a 10am meeting.
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bluecanary
They left around 9:35am.I think that it may take them about 10 minutes to get to the local KH (which is near where I live), so they get there just in time to sit and sing.
Getting there 15 minutes early is just in time to sit and sing? GEEZ how early did YOU used to get there?
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Another WTF moment...............
by Vachi 8 He Is inwell a few actually......so i'm sitting in the we'redumb hall today, and the core of the topic is recognizing gods qualities through jesus actions and also how jesus spent eons of time with god learning what his father does.
i gotta question: what purpose does that serve?
is god preparing jesus to do something that he himself is tired of or is no longer able to do?
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Just popped in to point out that I am enough of a nerd to know exactly which ST:TNG episode you're talking about.
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The Little Things
by KW13 inwhat really frustrates me, is that so many witnesses get caught up in huge worldwide events such as disasters, wars e.t.c that they fail to see that man isn't inheritantly bad, and that there are good individuals in this world who aren't part of the watchtower clique.
i find myself feeling pity for the witnesses, who wake up to a world on edge rather than a day that could potentially be their best.
many of them have ceased to try in their lives, unwilling to pursue education and even a family because they are waiting for their future which is forever just around the corner.
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I like your analogy, Gregor.
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Witnesses "Policing" People...Is It True?
by CrimsonBleu inmy sister told me once she likes to "police" people, that it was sort of a game she liked to play.
she is true to her word, she does just that.
always seeking the negative, rarely acknowledging positive...anything.. is this common among witnesses?
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bluecanary
My ex-husband was a very large man. We had to sit with an empty chair between us. One day at a crowded meeting, a brother wanted to sit in our four-chair row. Rather than be stuck sitting next to this brother, my husband suggested I go sit up front with my mother and my brother who was visiting from out of town. So I did.
We weren't having marital problems yet at this point. I stood talking with him both before and after the meeting. But I got hauled in front of the elders later and chewed out for not sitting with my husband. And it started a whole slew of gossip about me that tormented me for the next year and a half that I was in.