Boy, does this post deserve the rating! Thank you, Hillary, for articulating the WTS injustice so well. I thought this comment was telling:
I just stared at him in amazement that someone could share in the murder of so many innocent people and only be concerned with being caught.
I have observed that JW's, in contrast to other fundamentalists, are far more concerned about what "Mother" thinks than "Father". I blame that fear of "Mother" on some of the inconsistencies in JW behavior. Questionable activities that are not in the public eye (such as what is watched on TV) are permissable or ignored. Since Jehovah is more concerned about loving your neighbour than the WTS is about time counted, the needy neigbours gets a magazine instead of a casserole. I believe the fear of being caught pervades the entire organization.
On the other hand, since most fundamentalists are much more concerned about what God thinks (who is everywhere and sees all). This produces guilt similar to what the JW's experience, but the fundamentalists tend to behave in a more consistent manner according to their beliefs. Being caught is not at issue. God knows already what they have done. The neighbour gets a casserole AND a sermon. The fundamentalist watches the TV show but then repents and sells the darn thing.