Sorry to hear about your story. As cognizant dissident said, keep gatting counseling and be open and honest with them. I haven't been back to the JWs for 4 years and it gets better and better as time goes by. You will find TRUE FRIENDS out in the "world" that don't lie to you and don't have agendas. Good luck. And perhaps reading post hear help too, it does with me.
Etna