I want to spend the rest of my days with her but I know I can't & she knows it as well... I'm falling in love with someone I can't have
Please listen to yourself. Your head is recognizing things that the heart prefers to ignore.
Here are some things to consider:
- Witnesses are not supposed to date casually. Dating among Witnesses is for serious appraisal of a potential spouse, not mere socializing or enjoyable company. Dating is to be done in groups, not one on one, to avoid temptations of the flesh.
- Witnesses are pressured to marry young, especially the young ladies.
- Kingdom Halls have an unbalanced male-female ratio. It's a sad twist on Jan & Dean's hit, Surf City ("Two girls to every boy!") There are not enough single Brothers to go around, so the Sisters must compete for them...or...
- Young ladies who find no worhty prospects in the Kingdom Hall often drift away from the religion long enough to find and wed a Worldly (i.e. non-Witness) man. Then, after some time in the Kingdom Hall's penalty box (sitting in the back row, being ignored for the most part), they will earn reinstatement. After that, it is their duty to try to bring their Worldly Non-Believing Mate to the Kingdom Hall, out in the never-ending the door-to-door pamphlet distribution campaign, and into the baptismal pool.
Don't put yourself or her through anything you are not willing to commit to 100%, with eyes wide open to what may lay ahead.