welcome,
i can so relate to what your going through. Please remember that your not yet being married is no reflection on you as a person, it is a reflection on everyone who has rejected you and shows what poor taste they have.
Honestly i think it takes a humans till age 30 to actualy mature into the person they wil become. I've alot of young teenagers and 20 somthings in the org rush into marriage before they know themselves, 10 years later they wake up and realise that they are now a different person and not suited at all to their partner.
heres a big hug ((( )))) and please know that you are now amongst freinds who will help, and who truly do care for you.
PS. and the one thing they won't do is fob you off with " wait on jehovah/ new system"