Posts by RosePetal

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How brainwashed were you before you discovered the truth about the "truth"?

by asilentone in

for me, i was 100 percent brainwashed.

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How brainwashed were you before you discovered the truth about the "truth"?

by asilentone in

for me, i was 100 percent brainwashed.

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This is a difficult one because I know I was brainwashed about so many things and believed it to be true. I had a firm belief in God but there were so many things that did not sit right. Although I was a born in there were many problems in my family, nothing was straightforward I did allow myself to be controlled about many things by my family and the org.

But as I grew older I went through differents stages of uba zealousness but that was partly because I was constantly having health problems and told I wasn't faithful enough, not doing enough. Having health problelms of any kind was no excuse for missing meetings and not keeping up, everyone else was carrying me etc. ect.

So when my health improved I would go over the top and overdo it just so that people would stop marking me and avoiding me. I remember a sister saying to me 'you've got to earn your salvation you know there's no sitting back in 'Jehovahs organisation'. When it was pointed out to an elder that he was avoiding us he said ' You have to earn me and my family's friendship.

I remember saying to my sister one day how can you earn salvation when the bible says it is a gift from god this just does not sit right with me. The look of 'shock horror' on her face I had stepped outside the box and was thinking for myself. I was still always kicking against the goad as the org. likes to put it. and every now and again I would mention something I was not happy about to my family.

Years ago when I was still quite young I will never forget the advice from a sister who claimed to be of the anointed she said that if it looked like the org was going against the teachings of Jesus Christ and his heavenly father, that it is God we look to and not man. It is not religion but our relationship with God that is important. She was one of the most zealous witnesses I had ever met and I never forgot her wise words.

RosePetal

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I been absent...

by Aussie Oz in

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hi peoples... for those that wonder (and those that dont!

) why i have been absent the last few weeks.... i have been so preoccupied with the stresses of house hunting and dealing with banks that i have not had brain space to focus on anything else.. hopefully that is over as we are about to sign another contract and all things going well this one will not fall over!

aint gettin' excited until the bank says yes.. on another thought, does the absence indicated a slow but steady move away from reliance on this forum?.

RosePetal

GOOD LUCK AUSSIE hope all goes well

RosePetal

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is it ok for an agnostic to pray to God?

by poor places in

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i used to say a prayer most nights before i fell asleep, and i felt real comfort.

no matter how much anxiety i had, praying made me feel that i was ok because a higher power (one who had counted the hairs of my head and who considered me worth many sparrows!

) would take care of everything.. now, after my jw awakening, i'm an agnostic, and i feel less comfort than i did before, because i don't know if anyone powerful is looking after me.

RosePetal

Hi 'poor place' I have just sent you a PM [I forgot to title it]

RosePetal

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Struggling

by EmptyInside in

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it's just my personality to go the fade route, but i can't handle it anymore.

i lost respect for myself.

i won't write a da letter out of respect for family.

RosePetal

Spot on Dark side

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Struggling

by EmptyInside in

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it's just my personality to go the fade route, but i can't handle it anymore.

i lost respect for myself.

i won't write a da letter out of respect for family.

RosePetal

Although we were in the wilderness for about eight years not attending but still full of doubts and unsure whether it was still the 'truth' although we could see so many things not adding up, when we finally woke up and walked away all my extended family shunned us.

But we had each other, my hubby my daugher and I. I feel so much for all those who wake up alone I can imagine what a frightening lonely experience that can be. To make up your mind to face everyone shunning you. Even though at last you will be free is such a high price. That you could lose your husband wife or children and risk them shunning you. This is no small thing, no small decision to make. My heart goes out to you, I have sat and cried reading some of the heartbreaking stories on this and other forums.

I have not let go of my faith in God so my prayers are with you empty inside and 5th generation I pray you have the courage and the strength to keep going whatever decision you make. I pray that your families wake up.

EMPTY INSIDE HUGS

5TH GENERATION HUGS RosePetal

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Feel the Love

by FlyingHighNow in

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i want to take this opportunity to start a thread inspired the poster dark side.. sometimes people come across on here as mean spirited or hopelessly grumpy.

and it's obvious when you read their posts that they are good people and really just need some soothing healing love.

so please, use this thread to spread some soothing, healing love to anyone, especially the social porcupines.

RosePetal

WONDERFUL the best things in life are free

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Feel the Love

by FlyingHighNow in

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i want to take this opportunity to start a thread inspired the poster dark side.. sometimes people come across on here as mean spirited or hopelessly grumpy.

and it's obvious when you read their posts that they are good people and really just need some soothing healing love.

so please, use this thread to spread some soothing, healing love to anyone, especially the social porcupines.

RosePetal

That picture is beautiful LTW makes me feel so relaxed and chilled out. More pictures please.

RosePetal

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Scarborough, UK JW Paedophile around 1999-2000?

by James_Slash in

i'm just looking to see if anyone was aware of this.. i was a jw at the time and me, my friend and my mother would often attend the scarborough, south bay congregation whenever we were on vacation - probably over a 3-year-period.. around 1999-2000 we went there and there was an american 'brother' present who had married a 'sister' who he had met at the new york bethel when she had visited.

both he and she were regular pioneers.

you could tell that the congregation held them in the very highest regard.. i remember on the thursday night during the service meeting they got him on the platform and he told the whole congregation how he emptied the bins at bethel but enjoyed doing it for jehovah.

RosePetal

Somebody I knew from a congregation near scarborough told me of another child molester that scarborough cong. had who had once served as a MS and had abused girls in the cong. before he was disfellowshipped, for and affair with a young girl, they said that years later a worldy girl made allegations about him then a couple of witnesses [women] backed this up, and that he was sentenced to 3 yrs this was a few years ago.

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As a JW kid, did you wish you could join the girl guides/scouts?

by highdose in

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also known as cubs and brownies i belive.

i always wanted to join them when i was a child.

i had freinds at school who were in and loved hearing the tales of what they got up to.

RosePetal

Hi looloo Glad to you back missed you. Have sent you a PM

RosePetal