i love watching the clouds...its peaceful
(wow, that was deep, lol!)
i have been playing a game with my boyfriend (it totally blew his mind, btw) and would like to invite you to participate, but first you must suspend your disbelief.
if you choose to play, here is the game:.
go outside and look up into the sky.
i love watching the clouds...its peaceful
(wow, that was deep, lol!)
ok - i couldn't keep away from this board - but i lasted longer than a week (outlaw!).
here i am sitting in the sun on a beautiful sunday afternoon drinking beer catching up with the posts on this board.
i just had to write a message to anyone still attending meetings, despite knowing that they are a forum to propagate lies and deceit.
cantleave, that's the spirit!
living by leaving! Yes!
man reunites with gorilla.
be sure and listen to his message at the end also.. .
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/21134540/vp/37272262#37272262.
that was beautiful! animals can be so pure and innocent
that they (trinity) are burning billions alive...forever?
with worms that live forever gnawing on them?.
aaahhh Kurt! RIP
HELL WORMS!!! Hilarious! Can't stop laughing at the thought of that!!
I love your bug, brizzzy! and the kermy green goes great with your fabulous red hair!
the classics are beautiful, i don't know what their names ever are, but i love to look!
i doubt very seriously that i am the first to make the connection of exiting jw's and much of the movie "shawshank redemption".. frequently, the injustice that many experience as baptized members of jehovah's witnesses cause them to want to resign, to leave.. but it is a prison of sorts.
if you leave and announce it, you are shunned.
and no one will talk to you.. shawshank is such a remarkable movie to me for its simple, underlying theme; finding meaning in our suffering, and never stopping the fight against injustice, esp against our own freedom.. the best part of the movie is the line "you can either get busy living, or get busy dying.".
That is one of the best movies!!! Yes! justice and freedom , the human spirit alive!
to all of you exjws, i'm sure you've been asked this question one way or the other many times and i'm sure the answer is different for many of you, i'd like to know directly from you never having a chance to hear or read many exjw's answers to this.
knowing that you would be cut off from your family and friends and other consequences for your decision to leave, how did you ever get the strength to do it?
i mean really, i find it fascinating to know that there are so many of you who were at one time very devout, if not at the very least loyal to one of the most successful mind-contol organizations ever who believed all if not most of what the society taught and still you found the courage to risk everything once you accepted that it isn't what it claims to be.
(alltimejeff, i swear i wasnt copying your 'mantra' thingy , lol)
to all of you exjws, i'm sure you've been asked this question one way or the other many times and i'm sure the answer is different for many of you, i'd like to know directly from you never having a chance to hear or read many exjw's answers to this.
knowing that you would be cut off from your family and friends and other consequences for your decision to leave, how did you ever get the strength to do it?
i mean really, i find it fascinating to know that there are so many of you who were at one time very devout, if not at the very least loyal to one of the most successful mind-contol organizations ever who believed all if not most of what the society taught and still you found the courage to risk everything once you accepted that it isn't what it claims to be.
For me there came a point when I felt that i had outgrown this religion and to stay would mean soul-suicide. It was my deepest feelings and intuition followed by analysing that brought me to my knees , then into peace . I wasn't so concerned during the months of my walking away about the consequences ( of course i knew intellectually that there would be backlash) , I was more concerned with my own psyche and well-being and being true to myself. The strength comes from pain. Pain and not being settled inside can drive you to do the unthinkable. I still have to find strength when I think of my family and some dear friends that i am 'dead' to.
A personal kind of mantra that i tell myself when I feel alone or the heartache resurfaces is~~this is my life, no one else is living it but me, this is my experience...I am alive today, I may not be alive tommorrow...~~
and when i think that way, I breathe deeper, walk slower, enjoy the moment, take it all in.....
....did i go off on a tangent?
just wanted to interduce myself an give an quick synopsis.. i was a happy an healthy(ish) young man back in march 08. i was cornnered by a (didn't know it @ the time) jw who talked to me alot about "the truth" and why the world is like it is.
he is a window cleaner in town, hence i didn't know as he wasn't in his suit.
everything he said made sense to me @ the time, but thinking back i wasn't @ my healthiest or strongest so he got me @ my weakest point.
yes, it is too much for us to live that lifestyle, it actually hurts
sorry you're having such a difficult time of it right now, no one knows truly how much a person can be suffering inside. it's so good that you listened to your gut and left.
the rejection is adding injury to insult....disagreeing w a person's choice to decide to no longer believe something they've been taught, and then shunning them (which also perpetuates the ignorance of the 'flock' by not being able to discuss other ideas w them)
I wish you the best in your healing..
Faerie
if jws don't have the truth; if there is no paradise earth; if there is no end of this system; if death is all there is, then what hope do we have to look forward too?.
I remember a conversation I had w a former JW friend as I was 'falling out of the truth', in which she said 'what purpose do people in the world really have?'
This just sounded so arrogant, ignorant, and presumptous!
And this is how JW's are closed-off. It is engrained in them to think that if you aren't living the way theyv'e laid out so precisely (according to their very own special interpretation of the bible) ..then my god, you are just without any purpose or hope.
It really is narrow thinking.
There are other ways to think. Their are other ways to believe, if you wish. There are other ways that don't isolate or divide.
It may seem scary to imagine that the paradise utopia is not the ultimate, but if you can let that go, then there is a sort of freedom in not clinging so very tightly to a fantastic dream that comes at a such a high price.
Maybe there is an afterlife, maybe we'll find out...after-life...
We are all capable of expanding our minds, changing our perspective, growing...if you are conflicted inside, it's ok, you're human. (as a JW, are people really allowed to be human?)
I wish you peace in your quest
carpe diem,
gather the roses!
Faerie