Posts by joannadandy

6

All we leave behind

by wanderlustguy in

jw
friends

sometimes i think about my path behind me.

the things i used to like, even my home i grew up in.

now just the thought of going back there gives me chills, i'm there for 2-3 days and it's time to go!

joannadandy

I want so badly to share everything with someone, but know I can't do that until I can be complete on my own.

A very wise idea - one most people never realize. Things will be much better for you and your future partner if you are able to have that "completeness" on your own. You can't find your kindred spirit if you don't know your own spirit. It's not an easy thing to figure out. It takes time. You do a lot of self-reflection so I have no worries that eventually you'll be able to put it together.

We've all made so many things happen because of our determination, and the intellectual side of me knows anything I want is within reach. But the insecure emotional side wonders if I am a good enough person to have what I really want, if I will ever again love someone with all of me, with them returning it, because no matter how good things are, they are never what they could be if you could truly share them with a kindred spirit.

You will eventually - I have no doubts of that.

But nothing hurts as bad as figuring out you were alone the whole time you thought you were truly home.

Here's to finding our homes. Each and everyone of us, because we all deserve it.

12

See what happens when you miss a Cheesefest?

by Jourles in

jw
friends

although it would have been fun to meet some new faces in wi, i was unable to make it.

so....i had to endure the warm beach weather of michigan's west coast for a volleyball tournament instead.

since i was the main picture taker, i really didn't have any good pics of myself.. (my partner and i tied for 5th place out of 25 teams on saturday -- no money for 5th place losers.

joannadandy

mmmm....fresh Jourles....

18

Technically Speaking...

by joannadandy in

jw
friends

.

i can't be an apostate if i never got baptised, correct?.

in jw technical terms of course.

joannadandy

EXACTLY Terry - which is what makes me laugh.

For example - my parents both ex-catholics by default "apostates" - I guess they did too good a job in raising me to question everything and search for understanding.

18

Technically Speaking...

by joannadandy in

jw
friends

.

i can't be an apostate if i never got baptised, correct?.

in jw technical terms of course.

joannadandy

My parents aren't that devious or computer savy - my mom - let someone else do her job of yelling at me? HA! And again I say HA!

Actually our relationship has been very good the past few years. They know how I feel and that I'm not coming back. They've accepted it, and we don't particularly rub our lifestyles or beliefs in each others faces. It works nicely for us.

We still have conversations about it - but they aren't the crying screaming clutching at the Bible variety they used to be. Just more of a "oh - ok" finish to them. Which is fine by me. I won't try to "convert" them as long as they return that simple favor.

18

Technically Speaking...

by joannadandy in

jw
friends

.

i can't be an apostate if i never got baptised, correct?.

in jw technical terms of course.

joannadandy

Well that's the funny thing - I have a blog but it 9 times out of 10 has NOTHING to do with Witnesses. The one time I post my feelings about being raised in a weirdo high control religion - I get some whacky comment. Makes me wonder who it is, and how they stumbled on to the site. I have a feeling I must know them because my blog isn't real "high readership" if ya get my drift. It's just a place for me to spout off and all my friends to point and laugh at me doing so.

18

Technically Speaking...

by joannadandy in

jw
friends

.

i can't be an apostate if i never got baptised, correct?.

in jw technical terms of course.

joannadandy

Thought so.

I just got a funny little comment on my blog - so I was just curious if this person was calling me an Apostate. Of course they were completely annonymous and of course felt sorry for me for the way I felt, and insisted I re-read the Bible with an Open mind.

Of course reading my blog with an open mind was not even mentioned. I giggle - tee and hee!

18