Posts by joannadandy

No - actually your post sounds like something I could have composed myself quite a few times in my life. You're not alone in how you feel. I think quite a few of us here have probably had the same thoughts, anger, and frustrations.

I also couldn't afford therapy, or didn't think I could risk exposing how bad off I was to my family by asking for their help. I managed to get through it, and you know what - things are pretty darn good for me, and I don't really have those thoughts or anger and frustration anymore.

Hang in there - some good advice was already given in this thread - but take a look in your local phone book - there may be some free resources available to you in your area that you didn't even know about.

A trick that always worked for me, to keep fighting the fight that is life, was to think of something I was definately looking forward to. Sometimes things as stupid as a tv show I wanted to watch, or book that was going to be released in few weeks. Things like that gave me something to look forward to. And then other things - like there was a local park near my school that had landscaped gardens. I always went there to do homework, or just eat lunch and hang out - and I would allow myself some time to just be present and enjoy things like the sounds, the smells, the texture of the space I was in. Focusing on that and how much joy that gave me, was a nice respite from thinking about all the crap that seemed to be falling down in my life at that time.

Finding what simple things bring you joy - can be the first step to working your way out of your frustrations. Sometimes if we just allow ourselves to really ponder what brings us true joy, it's enough to outweigh the heavyness in our lives.

I wish you the best Rachel, please hang in there and I hope some peace can find it's way to you soon, but until then I hope you find your small joys to sustain you.

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I am So Angry

by GoddessRachel in

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i hate everything.

i am so angry at my mother, at my father, my sister, my brother.

nobody understands me.

joannadandy

Sorry double post

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The smell

by John Doe in

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of a late spring rainshower on a fresh cut hay field reminds me of my childhood.

how about you?

joannadandy

Sweaty horses do it for me.

Ok it sounds silly but I totally agree...something about a horse smell and the combo of saddle leather, and grain...hell even their dusty saddle blankets...I do miss riding sometimes.

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The smell

by John Doe in

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of a late spring rainshower on a fresh cut hay field reminds me of my childhood.

how about you?

joannadandy

Wet cool earth and decaying fall leaves...possibly one of my favorite smells.

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Your Favorite Shakespeare?

by compound complex in

william shakespeare ( baptised 26 april 1564 23 april 1616 ) was an english poet and playwright , widely regarded as the greatest writer in the english language and the world's pre-eminent dramatist.

he is often called england's national poet and the " bard of avon " (or simply "the bard").. what is your favorite work and quotations therefrom...?.

cc.

joannadandy

1. 12th Night

2. Much Ado About Nothing

3. MacBeth

4. Othello

5. Taming of the Shrew

Some Favorite Quotes:

Troilus and Cressida - "The common curse of mankind, - folly and ignorance"

Othello - "Reputation is an idle and most false imposition; oft got without merit and lost without deserving."

12th Night - "Love sought is good, but given unsought is better"

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Did anyone get told that they 'think about things too much'?

by jambon1 in

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in the very early days of my explaining to certain witnesses my doubts, i kind of ran through all of them.

they probobly merged into one big hodge-podge of apostate doubting nonsense.

- the nephilim penis size, the animals in the ark, the she bears killing the kids, davids baby being killed by god for his adultery, jesus sacrifice not really being a sacrifice, the torture of jw's in the camps, appointment of elders, the changing doctrines.........but more than a few elders/rank & file witnesses told me that i "think about stuff too much".

joannadandy

Yup, I'd nearly forgotten that one..."It's not important to spend too much time thinking about things like that - better to look at the larger picture"

*puke*

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