Redline,
Welcome to the discussion. I was disappointed in the way you opened the discussion, saying our lives were worthless, but glad to see you back up from that statement a bit.
I believe Jehovah's Witnesses have many truths, but not all of them. I believe most Jehovah's Witnesses are good people trying to make their way in life as best they can and using the teachings of the society to help them do this and help them through the very difficult times.
Where you and I differ is, that I believe this is true of all of humanity, not just the witnesses. I think we are all in this together, all of humanity and that we turn to God to help us through and to make our lives more meaningful. I think every time we help another person, we make our lives meaningful.
Whether you decide to stay a witness or not is irrelevant. How your use your life, whether a witness or not, is what is important. Follow the fruitages of the holy spirit and follow Jesus' commandment to love both your neighbor and your enemy.
I wish you peace.
hugs
Joel