If it is, the Holy Spirit didn't decide to get involved until 1972. Then it made Bethel Elders.....then it didn't.
Its sad. As someone that was heavily involved in appointments....I was in constant conflict that no one wanted to discuss CHARACTER traits.....but rather, how many service hours the guy had.
i'm brand new to the board.
long time, "big shot" elder, ....taught at km school, conventions, etc.
yeah, i know it means nothing....but it gives you an idea of how deep i've been a jw.. i don't even really know what to write at this point.
Wow...what a great bunch of people....thanks to each of you..... I feel like a whiny baby.
Peaches..... sure, you can ask me anything :)
hello everyone.. i'm new to this forum.
i left the organization several months ago, and am on a new path now.
though i didn't grow up in the organization, i have basically lived a life of pretending to be something i'm not, sheltering my feelings from everyone, and not feeling "enough" to anyone.
Hi Fragile...
Looks like you have some company....I'm new as well.
How are you holding up?
ok this is weird i am noticing more and more jw's on facebook.
even an elder i know has started an account.
at first it seemed like it was just the "spiritually weak" who really don't care or do much field service.
I abandoned mine for this very reason.
I didn't delete.....I just abandoned it.
i'm brand new to the board.
long time, "big shot" elder, ....taught at km school, conventions, etc.
yeah, i know it means nothing....but it gives you an idea of how deep i've been a jw.. i don't even really know what to write at this point.
THanks to all of you. I've read every post....I'm going to follow your advice. Such kindness......kindness you won't find in a KH unless you have some sort of status.......
I have made an appointment with a therapist. I saw one briefly after going through a divorce a few years ago. But this is much, much more devastating. I can't pretend anymore. There are so many lies.
I will write my story
if i took her to the memorial this year.im df'd for years,but out of love and respect for my parents i always gave them this one night.my mum dosent drive.i was going to drive her and sit by her.i promised my dad that i would always do this for him.he was pretty cool,even tho he was an elder.my "devout" sister {who has never lifted a finger to help my parents}told her yesterday that it "wouldnt look good" for me to show up w/my mum,altho everyone knows that i have done everything for my parents,both before my dad died in december and since.
is my sister just jealous that i have a fabulous life,am beautiful,rich,a guitar god,have excellent cool hair, xray vision,can communicate with aliens and have supernatural abilities?
or is she just mean?lol..btw,i am going.and im taking my mum and we are going to sit in the front row,and yes,im gonna wear velvet.....
wow. I wonder how this type of attitude starts.
The Bible plainly states that he that doesn't provide for his own family is worse than a man without faith-- 1 Tim. 5:8
The honoring your father and mother is the FIRST COMMAND with a promise - Eph. 5
Is it that easy for some to completely ignore the Word of God?
i'm brand new to the board.
long time, "big shot" elder, ....taught at km school, conventions, etc.
yeah, i know it means nothing....but it gives you an idea of how deep i've been a jw.. i don't even really know what to write at this point.
Its all so surreal.....thanks to all for the warm welcome.
How long until you came out of the fog? the devastation? the crying? the feeling that God may just hate you?
Thank you for the warm welcome.
Admittedly, I feel sheepish and scared at being here......but I've 'disappeared' ...... so whats left?
The new Generations teaching is going to be too much for some to swallow. I couldn't believe it when I read it.
i'm brand new to the board.
long time, "big shot" elder, ....taught at km school, conventions, etc.
yeah, i know it means nothing....but it gives you an idea of how deep i've been a jw.. i don't even really know what to write at this point.
Thanks to each of you.........I've forgotten what kindness looked like.
Good to know there are other high character elders here who couldn't watch it anymore.
I'm trying to deal with feeling completely lost.
i'm brand new to the board.
long time, "big shot" elder, ....taught at km school, conventions, etc.
yeah, i know it means nothing....but it gives you an idea of how deep i've been a jw.. i don't even really know what to write at this point.
Hello to all,
I'm brand new to the board. Long time, "big shot" elder, ....taught at KM School, conventions, etc. etc. Yeah, I know it means nothing....but it gives you an idea of how deep I've been a JW.
I don't even really know what to write at this point. My story is long and convoluted. A fatherless boy, rebel, then highly respected elder. I've just 'disappeared'..........
There were many, many things I didn't appreciate...but in the end, it was the gross lack of love that I was exposed to as an elder....the back room conversations about precious 'sheep' that included calling them names, seeing families destroyed.....etc. etc..........that lead me to a lonely few years of hurt.
I guess I don't know what or how to contribute at this point because I'm an emotional guy....which made me a popular elder......but lonely person.
Thanks.....and please be patient with me as I try to understand how an organization that claims love can be so cruel to people.
