it was a long time coming for me.....when i read about the extened generations, after being raised on1914 being the be all end all, and millions would never die....that was the end.
i was part of the 1975 fiasco, the 6 month only truth book studies, suffered through a disifellowshipping and their version of a rewind.
i finally am free and hope others can eventually look in instead of inside looking out!
Love threads like these. So much we can learn from other people.
Mine was a collection...but as a long time elder....and appointed at a young age.....it was my years as an elder and seeing/hearing all the corruption among elders that really made me take a longer look at the whole organization.
When it gets right down to it........smart people leave that cesspool......... its those that are lazy that tend to stay.
this is quite embarrassing for me to share, but as a 30+ year old single female i have lingering doubts as to whether i can still meet a decent man and get married.. you all know how difficult it is for sisters to find an appropriate partner in the congregation.. and now, all the more so that i've learned ttatt.
i still am bound by low self-esteem, and i do have trust issues, especially with men.
i am very lonely and so i just keep myself busy with work to avoid depression (although it is also a great source of stress).. any other single females out there having similar thoughts?.
I wrote an article on this very subject. JW women are totally destroyed in this cult
i didn't go to the convention but have family who did, all are going on about the resurrection talk, how there wasn't a dry eye in the arena.
and apparently a video was shown too on it.
we lost a family member some years back and they are on fb talking about the resurrection and new world coming soon.
For those that question if the Governing Body is evil......if they know what they are doing..........this thread should answer that.
Sick.
fusion with god natural .
in the cosmos universe or whatever.
all things are made of the same materials etc so humans will always be fused with the universe in life and death because those building blocks are eternal.
Okay.
And do tell....................is he the God of the Watchtower?
How did he get the Judge those caddy's........but needs each publisher to commit to a $$ amount monthly?
this week's study april 15th 2014 was called "do you see the one who is invisible?".
it was perhaps one of the most depressing, controlling, fear-mongering, stress inducing, doctrinally incorrect, hate-inspiring, judgemental, cult-like, irrational, hyped-up, critical, crazy, stretched out, fanciful, illogical, burdensome, inflated, coersive, manipulative, and brain-snappingly weird stuff i have read for some time.... (but i'm sure it was just a rehash and repeat of previous stuff...for the new masses....).
i had to keep up a sane appearance while in the hall, and even answer some garbage while this was being 'studied'... my cognitive disonance must be so strong now, because i found this one of the hardest ones to endure....now that i am home, i have poured a stiff drink and am trying to clear my head...... one paragraph was classic:.
YES!!!! Rely on the God that chose JW's!!!!! he will protect you from the governments of the world during the great tribulation.............however, in the meantime, if you could just commit to a dollar amount every month please....
.................hey, he can knock out governments........... he just needs a little spending money to keep going.
..specifically, the suffering of animals.
you can talk about free will/sin/people choosing to not listen to god etc to explain human suffering being allowed.. but how can you love a god that allows animals, that haven't sinned or chosen to not have anything to do with god, to have their short lives ended in often long, drawn out, painful ways.
i could list stories i've read that would probably make you feel ill, but i'm not looking to shock anyone or start an emotional debate.
What???
You people don't accept the insightful answer provided by Fred Franz??? He was a member of the faithful slave!!!!
The all powerful God, creator of heaven and earth, has decided to watch his precious children tortured, maimed, handicapped, raped and murdered for century after century................because HIS name is so important.
What?? You mean, you wouldn't want to watch your children be raped and killed over and over and over and over again......just to make sure you had a good name in your neighborhood?
Yeah..........uh............the absurdity knows no bounds, huh? A human wouldn't DREAM of such a course, but a perfect God would???
Absurd doesn't even define it.
found this on youtube.
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eot8sac9-no.
^ I sure did Scott. I'm currently working on my own story for an eBook...... it's very cathartic. It meant completely turning my life upside down....I have literally left every single person I knew behind. Fortunately, my family would never do that.....but all out side that circle are gone.
TTATT was a devastating.....but also, oddly serene experience...... it's such a strange emotional journey.....a person is amazed at how easy it was, but at the same time totally life altering.
found this on youtube.
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eot8sac9-no.
Yep.......it's one of thousands of examples!
http://darrinhart.hubpages.com/hub/Jehovahs-Witnesses-A-Study-in-Hypocrisy
for me, that happy day was in morro bay, calif. it was the fall, oct 1958 or 9. gorgeous weather.
the sun was shining and the wind was coming off of the ocean.. at that time, morro bay was unassigned territory.. talesin on another thread was talking about a lovely day she had, going with her grandfather, talking with a mr languages.
lol.
The very last day I walked away from it..........PURE JOY
before i dive into the actual write-up of this experience, let me put some things straight.. i have thought long and hard if i should write more about my experiences during the 10+ years at different branches.
during these years i worked from financial department, service department, home office and different it assignments.
as you can imagine one sees and hears and reads a lot of stuff going through different stations in different countries.
I am just discovering this thread/story............BluePill......please continue to write.
There are so many levels of pain for those of us that have left the "org".......I was a long time elder and have experienced very similar things to what you wrote about.
Don't stop writing......get it all out.
I wrote a small eBook ..... it helped me a great deal to just barf it all out: https://payhip.com/b/BeyN
