For me, it started out with some of the things being said from the podium. Like, "If you disagree with the Elders/Society, maybe you should try being more humble," and other things. That sort of attitude really threw me as it wasn't consistent with what I had THOUGHT the Society was. Bear in mind that I was also one who had a lot of difficulty with the Elders in our congregation (I was a teenager who's parents weren't in the Society) so I started blaming the individual Elders giving the talks for statements like these. To me, the hubris was getting tough to swallow and it bothered me a lot. Then I started reading some of these same comments in the magazines. I began to have real doubts.
Funny thing about this was that I kept trying to find the absolute, total devotion that I once had. But couldn't find it again. I'd begun to see that the Society was flawed.
Anyway, I finally just cracked. I was totally miserable and confused and had been so for a while. I was far more miserable as a JW than I'd ever been. So I decided to distance myself from the KH until I could sort things out. Within 2 weeks, the congregation started harrassing me and leaving 30 to 50 messages on my answering machine a day. They'd find me at the grocery store and give me MORE attitude and hubris. They'd confront me even in public places. So I got tired of it and began really looking into things and trying to decide if it was the Society or me. I felt too close to the subject at this point, but their badgering made me realize that I needed to figure things out at eventually--even after the worst of it had subsided after the first couple of years.
Later, I returned to the subject when my in-laws decided to start pressuring me about it again. Now, I had more distance than before and could really sort things out. The first thing I needed to know was should I still consider the Society as my "True Religion." I started trying to figure out questions like: "Is the Society sincere and honest? Do they have their facts straight? Is it me, or is it them?" You can guess which way my conclusions went.
My experiences caused me to reevaluate everything, including religion/gods in general. I didn't want to limit myself to Christianity per se. I began to see that they all have claims to "The Truth," but none of them necessarily has it. I began to see that the arguments made by atheists were more covnincing to me. Eventually, I began to see myself as an agnostic atheist or secular atheist. By this point, the Society had long been written off my list of possibilities.
IsaacJ