Welcome, welcome, welcome! I am aslo new here, been "out" for 6 months now, but it still seems like yesterdy. :( I cannot go on enough about the wonderful support and advice given here by everyone! It is a wonderful place to vent, explore, and learn to move on as I am currently trying to do. I am deeply sorry for all the hurt you've endured in the org, and I hope every day in your newfound freedom brings you more and more happiness! Hang in there and keep looking forward. :) Glad you're here!
hereiam!
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My awakening and realization that I have been told a lie
by Soldier77 inhi all, new posting, but i've been lurking for a while.
i thought it was time to "come out" as it were and voice my story.... i was born into the jw cult surrounded by all of my jw family.
grandfather was an elder for almost 40 years till he passed, both of my uncles are currently now elders and have been for the last 15 years.
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New here...
by hereiam! insorry if this starts off as a kind of a downer.. i am 29, and my husband and i have stopped going to meetings since last october.
we live in mexico and used to attend the english.
long story short, after realizing how many much we've been lied to we stopped going to our meetings, moved out of the territory, switched to spanish, and after a month of attending just vanished.
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hereiam!
I got up this morning and reread all the posts. I again was overwhelmed with tears of happiness and comfort and can't thank everyone enough. Really. I take each comment as precious and I'm greatful. Thank you all for caring so much.
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New here...
by hereiam! insorry if this starts off as a kind of a downer.. i am 29, and my husband and i have stopped going to meetings since last october.
we live in mexico and used to attend the english.
long story short, after realizing how many much we've been lied to we stopped going to our meetings, moved out of the territory, switched to spanish, and after a month of attending just vanished.
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hereiam!
OH LOL! I just got what you said about the "send me! send me!" Too funny! I totally never even thought of that....scary maybe it was subconscious..o geez..
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New here...
by hereiam! insorry if this starts off as a kind of a downer.. i am 29, and my husband and i have stopped going to meetings since last october.
we live in mexico and used to attend the english.
long story short, after realizing how many much we've been lied to we stopped going to our meetings, moved out of the territory, switched to spanish, and after a month of attending just vanished.
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hereiam!
Wow guys. I love you all. That's all I have to say. Just plain love you and love being here. You've all officially made my day! I'm serious. I feel A LOT better. So glad I found this place!!
Heartbreaker- All your advice was really good. I really like how everyone helps me see to take it slow. I feel like I'm the only one putting pressure on myself and its really unnecessary. Big weight off my shoulders. Also I am going to try to reach out and meet people. It might be a little more difficult because of where I live, and its a pretty small town, but I know its possible. I'm just glad I can start turning my mind around to the possibilites instead of dwelling on what I can't change. Thank you!!
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I just had my first child
by daniel-p inbaby girl, 6 lbs, 14 oz, 19-3/4in, looks like me they say.... still in awe... there were some complications, but mom and baby are doing good.
baby's down the hall in nicu and it still doesn't feel real.. .
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hereiam!
Super happy congrats to you and your new family!!! I can't imagine how you're feeling, surreal sounds right! I am looking forward to our first due here in August! I'm so happy for your healthy beautiful baby girl. God bless you and your new little gift!
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New here...
by hereiam! insorry if this starts off as a kind of a downer.. i am 29, and my husband and i have stopped going to meetings since last october.
we live in mexico and used to attend the english.
long story short, after realizing how many much we've been lied to we stopped going to our meetings, moved out of the territory, switched to spanish, and after a month of attending just vanished.
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hereiam!
Babba-
Also thanks for that arlice you posted on grief. I am reading it and it makes a lot of sense. I also want to show it to my husband, I think it will help make more sense of whats going on. :)
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New here...
by hereiam! insorry if this starts off as a kind of a downer.. i am 29, and my husband and i have stopped going to meetings since last october.
we live in mexico and used to attend the english.
long story short, after realizing how many much we've been lied to we stopped going to our meetings, moved out of the territory, switched to spanish, and after a month of attending just vanished.
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hereiam!
Thank you everybody. (tear..seriously this is touching..) I already feel a little warmer inside! How amazing it is to have a place to go where people actually DO know what you're going through! I know every post here is just going to make me cry, in a good way! There goes those hormones again! lol, but really, I appreciate the welcome so much and I really look forward to getting to know you all. I still get blown away from meeting people that will welcome you not based on your standing it the congregation. WOW thats nice! So anyways, thank you, thank you, thank you!
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New here...
by hereiam! insorry if this starts off as a kind of a downer.. i am 29, and my husband and i have stopped going to meetings since last october.
we live in mexico and used to attend the english.
long story short, after realizing how many much we've been lied to we stopped going to our meetings, moved out of the territory, switched to spanish, and after a month of attending just vanished.
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hereiam!
Thank you for all being so welcoming! I appreciate it. Its good to know that it is normal to go through all these feelings after leaving. I am so greatful we can raise our kid in a nuturing enviroment! Nice to meet everyone. :)
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Ebert: Why I Hate 3-D (And You Should Too)
by leavingwt inroger ebert.
why i hate 3-d (and you should too)3-d is a waste of a perfectly good dimension.
hollywood's current crazy stampede toward it is suicidal.
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hereiam!
I hate it too, I get major headaches, and I saw Avatar in 3d and the color from being so dark sucked.
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New here...
by hereiam! insorry if this starts off as a kind of a downer.. i am 29, and my husband and i have stopped going to meetings since last october.
we live in mexico and used to attend the english.
long story short, after realizing how many much we've been lied to we stopped going to our meetings, moved out of the territory, switched to spanish, and after a month of attending just vanished.
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hereiam!
Hi everyone. Sorry if this starts off as a kind of a downer.
I am 29, and my husband and I have stopped going to meetings since last October. We live in Mexico and used to attend the english. Long story short, after realizing how many much we've been lied to we stopped going to our meetings, moved out of the territory, switched to spanish, and after a month of attending just vanished. We moved to another state and now no one has a clue where we are and its pretty impossilbe to find us, so leaving went really smooth (easy to do in Mexico, espeically with the language switch me made..) and we've lived since November without a single interferance and in peace. My husband has had absolutly no problem moving on, he's been somewhat honest with his witness family and they take it ok. He also has kept in tact his strong sense of spirituality and thrives on reading the bible and discovering "new truths". I on the other hand have not had it so easy. I cannot get over the hurt, I obsess (even to the point of having reaccuring nightmares) about how my family will treat me if they find out. I have a HUGE family (immediate, cousins, aunts grandparents, ect..) that are all witnesses and I know will disown me the instant they find anything out. They are all either fanatical or sincerly loyal to the org. I am so miserable I have even lost the ability to pray, I've lost my faith, have no desire for "everlasting life", and can't talk to my husband about it since he doesn't understand and would be disappointed in me. What makes this even more excruciating (sorry if I can't spell..) for me is since we found the "truth" we immediatly wanted to have a baby. (That was one of our "sacrifices" we were going to make for the org..) and so now I'm 6 moths pregnant and my emotions are 1000 times worse about the whole matter. I feel like this baby is my only reason for living and I feel so guilty I can't be in a more normal mindset as I bring this child into the world. I have a lifelong history of major depression and it seems like its starting to come back and I'm freaked. I get all these emials from my family asking about my congregation, which sisters are going to help me out when I have this baby, ect.. and I just can't respond because I don't want to lie or tell the truth! I'm constantly in mental agony about not being a witness anymore I honestly can't say I'm happier since I left. I was miserable then, and now I feel like I'm in a different kind of prison. Plus living in a foreign country makes me more lonley than I can say, and I can't figure out how to make "real" friends, since I've never done it. I feel like this is more a vent than anything, but I don't know what to say or do. Its still all so new to me and I feel like saying screw everyone. I hate it. I'm so depressed. I'm sorry this is so negative but I needed to reach out to someone somehow. Please let me know your thoughts about my situations if you can sort of relate. I want to find my way to be happy but I'm terrified and lost.
Thank you for your hearing ear.